The World As I See It.

Just earlier I was choking on nostalgia from going through my tumblr and though I was happy,I was somewhat... I don't know how to describe it, it was acceptance that what has happened has happened, or so I think anyway.

I had great memories with this one person and now its time to move on, I mean there is this one girl on here that I really do adore and she makes me all warm inside when we talk, and that is a sure sign that I've moved on, I no longer miss my ex like that, I miss her ...

Alright. You're clearly not getting the point are you?

I'm a LESBIAN. Which means I don't like guys, no matter if you say you see yourself as a girl and you tell me you love me, its not gonna make a shred of difference to me at all, I still see you as the same guy I've known for 3 years, besides I see you as a really good friend and nothing more.

I get it that you adore me and you want that chance to be with me, but me and you are never gonna happen, even if I wasn't ...

The last time I posted here I was very depressed and basically felt like I couldn't do anything, well I still am in that state of depression, I've just gotten a LOT better at hiding it, within the space of November until now I have slipped down a very bad slope, this is me trying to pull myself up, I have been recommended for counselling at college because my work is suffering as well, problem being is that I'm not so good at talking about how I feel.

Ah. I have a LONG way to recovery. ...

Figured I'd vent here for once. Tumblr is fed up of me considering the amount of errors I get.

Anyways, lets get this thing started.

I remember how I said a few months back that I wouldn't let myself slip back into my old habits and slip into a lost state of mind, I thought I was stronger than to cave into those evil voices in my heard.

My strength sort of faded and I'm in this dark slump where I can't seem to pull myself out of, it hurts to even think ...

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Well....I am single. Again.

I have terrible luck with relationships.... Seriously.

But I am not downhearted.

That is all. ^^