RenaeChan77
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I'm starting to scare myself. Don't worry, it's nothing big like dark thoughts or anything like that. Well I do have those, but that's not what this is about. Anyways, I'm just starting to notice myself drift farther and farther away from people. It's like....I'm losing my sense of trust in people. Especially when it comes to dealing with people in a romantic sense. I used to be so upfront with people, and I opened myself up to anyone, but now I feel myself shutting people out more. Like the other

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I was really sad earlier in the week about my friends graduating. More so, one of my best friends whom my feelings had been growing for over the past couple of months. And the faster the days went by, the sadder I became at the thought of her leaving to go off to college. I had cared for her so much, and it hurt so much to think of her not being with me anymore. Now, I'm a very emotional person, so I was expecting to be in tears when I spent time with her today on her last day of school. Surprisingly,

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Just realized that my blog name is mildly ridiculous. But I like it like that. Hm.

Anyways, just felt like derping about this thing I went to last night. Yesterday was Day Of Silence for the LGBT community, and the preceeding part of that is Night Of Noise, a big party to celebrate our efforts, and just have fun with some gay pride and all that.

Being with a group of people like yourself, and just uniting for the same cause. I dunno. I can't describe the feeling for me.

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Hm.....this is really just me contemplating....Contemplating giving up. Or at least, putting things on hold for a while. It just seems like whatever I do, things don't work out. They just fail and I'm left feeling like shit. Perhaps I just give myself up to people to fast. I'm too trusting. And I don't want this to sound like another blog that's just complaining about how shitty things are and all that other bullshit because it's not. I'm not complaining about it, just saying things as they are

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Hm, I didn't think I'd end up writing blogs so much. But they're starting to help me get a better perspective on things. Anyways, this little post was just because I've managed to screw myself over yet again. This time by developing feelings for yet another of my straight (at least I think she is) friends. I'm starting to think that I subconsciously like torturing myself, because I do this all the time, or I'll develop feelings for someone that I KNOW is taken, or I KNOW it won't work out with,

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