Why

[WhiteBanki]

Mwahahahahahaha! It's finally done! This took me a lifetime to write I'm so happy it's finally done! Man this was so much harder to write than my sasunaru stuff...mayb cuz i was dealing w/ twins lol i apologize for the length but it's wat makes it a story also wat inspried me to write this was the song Why by Secondhand Serenade n i was gonna make this a songfic too but it would hav delayed the process. it helps set the mood for the story if u listen to the song first but u don't rly hav 2. anyway enjoy!

*POV= Point of View

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Twins. Incest. We don’t particularly like those two terms since incest just sounds too dirty and twins by itself sounded boring, so instead we've created our own. Twincest. We are twins and we have committed incest. Most would just call it taboo but to Hikaru and me it was just and only ever will be twincest.

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Kaoru’s POV

Hikaru and I...well never really lived in a world that had involved others. We were always concerned with ourselves and only ourselves. No one else had ever mattered, never. If we did have an intruder we'd make it into a game.

In unison with each other,

"If you want to be friends with us you have to be able to tell us apart."

A random girl speaks.

"Oh. Okay. You’re Hikaru and you’re Karou."

Instead of pointing to Hikaru she pointed to me, Kaoru, and instead of me Hikaru. The only thing that made this game impossible was the fact that we were identical and it only made things interesting in our lives.

Hikaru and I finish each others sentences.

"Thanks for..."

"...playing..."

"...but you..."

"...got it..."

In unison,

"Wrong!"

A random girl speaks again.

"Well how is one to tell with you two looking so identical?"

Hikaru pulls me closer to his body lacing his fingers together with mine, taking the free hand’s fingers and running them up my neck to the tip of my chin, pulling my head towards his and whispers in my ear.

"How is one to tell us apart Kaoru? When you’re under me and I'm making love to you and it's like I'm making love to myself."

I blush, turn away, and whine.

"Hi-hikaru...don't say that in front of our guests..."

The random girl screams and other girls around the room scream in delight at the sight had both created.

"BROTHERLY LOVE!! AHH!!"

We smile and wink. Only another act in the Host Club successfully completed I thought. The girls then leave for the day leaving behind an empty room of just the host club members, all doing their own thing.

I let go of my brother and sat myself down on the couch leaving him standing by himself. I sat there quietly thinking to myself. Hikaru was too busy entrancing himself with Haruhi. Ever since she came to the host club that day, it has always been just her.

Was I not good enough for him?

I've grown to accept the fact the he's always going after...but wait now that I think about he’s breaking a promise. He promised that he’d love no one but me...I now felt non-existent.

I hide my emotion until we arrive home and are in our bedroom. I bring it up in conversation.

"Hey Hikaru?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you remember the promise you made to me when we were smaller?"

"Yeah, why?"

He remembered?!

"What was it?"

"That I would never love anyone else but you, Kaoru, why?"

"..."

"Kaoru?"

"...then..."

"Then what?"

"Then why do you love...Haruhi?! I saw you looking at her again today, Hikaru! I know you love her and not me!"

"Kaoru..."

I start to cry.

"Kaoru...come here."

He pulls me into arms so that I'm facing him. He takes both his hands to cup my cheeks, kisses my forehead, presses his forehead to mine, wipes my tears away, looks me in the eyes, and says something so sweetly.

"I don't love Haruhi. I only like her. You’re always my love, Kaoru. I promise."

He always knows how to make me happy again...after all he was my twin...

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The Next Day at School

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Hikaru's POV

I can't believe he doubted me...but if I were Kaoru I wouldn't blame him for doubting me. I mean I do talk to her everyday whether he's there or not.

Everyday my feelings for Haruhi grew only making it harder not to say "I love you" and today she did something to make me say it out loud.

I sat at our usual spot, at a table in the host club, before our guests had arrived and Kaoru had gone of to get us all some cake to go with our tea.

"Hey Haruhi."

"Hey Hikaru."

"So wat's up?"

"Nothing much actually but I do have something in mind to ask you."

"Okay. Shoot."

"I've been wondering how you feel about me because I've been noticing how close we have gotten, Hikaru, and to be honest I love you. So I would like to know how things would go between us if we were to become more than just friends."

I had been sipping some tea as she said that and I started to choke and cough. Kaoru had heard me choking and started to run toward me forgetting the cake. I had finally stopped choking before Hikaru had reached me. I hadn't realized how close Kaoru was when I just blurted out to Haruhi.

"I love you too, Haruhi."

I heard Kaoru's footsteps slow down from a run to a walk and then stop right next to me. He had his banks over his eyes along with a sad, depressed, and empty look over his face. Haruhi noticed it too and showed some concern for the other twin. I spoke first then Haruhi.

"Kaoru...?"

"Kaoru? Are you ok? You look kind of pale."

I knew what was wrong. He finally spoke after some awkward silence and then put on a fake smile and said.

"Yeah I'm fine guys. Don't worry about me."

"Umm...ok. Haruhi, could you leave us alone for a sec? I need to speak with Kaoru."

"Sure."

With that she left but before I had a chance to turn around and speak to Kaoru the Host Club activities had begun.

***

Kaoru's POV

H-how...could he?! How, in the world, could he?!

Was what I was thinking at the exact moment I heard the words "I love you too, Haruhi." fall from Hikaru's mouth. I was utterly dumbfounded, sad, depressed, angry, and immediately felt empty like I wasn't needed anymore.

How could Hikaru have broken our promise so easily? What was he thinking?!

It was so hard to breathe at that point I felt like Hikaru had stopped my heart from beating by choking off my circulation but instead of going to go punch Haruhi's lights out for existing I composed myself and put on the fakest smile of my life. I didn't want to cause any trouble in the Host Club since it was just about to begin. So instead I decided to save my anger for Hikaru later, at home.

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After Host Club Activities Were Over

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We were in the limo heading home and I hadn't said a word to Hikaru. It was so awkward because he had known what it was he had done.

"Kao-"

"Shut up!"

Oh my god!

I felt like slapping myself. The last thing I want to do is hurt Hikaru, no matter how much he had hurt me. My eyes started to tear up as I looked at Hikaru's sorry face glancing at me. I turned immediately toward the window. When we finally got home I grabbed my stuff and ran into the house so fast Hikaru didn't have a chance to think. I started crying as soon as I entered our house. I ran in our room, locked the door behind me, dropped my stuff next to me, leaned on the door with my hand on the handle, and then I heard Hikaru's footsteps reach the door. He jiggled the door knob and yelled.

"Kaoru!!"

I didn't say anything. I just slid down the door to the floor, went into the fetal position, and cried. Hikaru keep yelling and pounding on the door.

"Kaoru! Please open the door!"

"KAORU!!"

I finally get up. Still crying I open the door and let Hikaru in our room about 2 feet and punched him in the face. Right in the jaw. I caught him so off guard he flew down to the ground and had a bloody lip.He just looked up at me stunned. I didn't even realize that I punched him. I was shocked too. I looked at my fist then Hikaru.

"I..."

"Kao-"

I just ran. I didn't want to hear him talk. I ran out of the house. I ran so far away. I just kept running until I saw a familiar park and sat on the swing and just thought to myself while crying.

How could you…and why did I…? Hikaru…

***

Back at the House

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Hikaru's POV

SHIT! He has a crazy left hook! That freakin hurt like hell!

"Kao-"

I couldn't call out to him because I couldn't move my mouth to talk.

Kaoru...I'm sorry...

I pick myself up from the floor and the maids came running to attend to my aid but I said I was fine. I walked in our room locking the door behind me.

What a day! I have Haruhi confess her love for me but then my own brother punches me in the face.

I walk in our bathroom and examine my face.

Damn! He left quite a mark. How am I going to explain this to Haruhi and the others? Ugh…I don’t know if I should accept her love for me or not, now. I know Kaoru is mad at me but to be honest was he seriously not thinking that I wouldn’t fall in love with her considering the amount of time her and I spend together. I mean it’s his fault that we do because of how he just lets me go talk to her and stare at her all the time. He doesn’t even say how much it bothers him. So how exactly was I supposed to know?! I mean I love Kaoru to death but sometimes…he’s just so…ugh…

I walk out of the bathroom after cleaning up my injury and decide not to go look for Kaoru. I wanted to let him have some time to himself, to blow of some steam. So I decide to take a little nap.

I’m sure he will be back home by the time I wake up.

***

Later That Night

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12 o’clock. Midnight. That’s what our alarm clock had said.

Kaoru…I needed Kaoru. I was longing for the touch of my twin brother. So I turn over in our bed hoping to reach out for Kaoru’s warm body next to me but to my surprise he wasn’t there!

Where’s Kaoru?! He still wasn’t home yet?! Oh man! I messed up really bad this time… Tch! Kaoru forgot his phone... So now I can’t call him directly.

This has happened before, but it’s sort of rare. He usually stays over Tamaki’s house if he’s really pissed at me and it was the Friday anyway I’ll just call Tamaki in the morning. So I just grabbed his pillow and fell asleep with it in my arms.

***

The Next Morning

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I woke up the next morning realizing that Kaoru’s still wasn’t home. So I immediately called Tamaki.

“Hey Tamaki.”

“Why hello there, my fateful follower, Hikaru, and to what pleasure do I owe this call for?”

Tch! Was he always this energetic in the mornings? Well that’s our Lord after all.

“I was wondering if Kaoru is there. I want to talk to him. I just figured he’d be there because we had another serious fight.”

“Oh is that so. I can’t say he is.”

“WHAT?! He has to be! He wasn’t home all night! SHIT!! Kaoru’s missing!!”

“What?! Kaoru is missing?! What did you do this time Hikaru?!”

“Well…I don’t wanna talk about it…”

“I suppose it’s none of my business but whatever you did you better apologize quickly for it!”

“Yeah I know…”

“I’ll help you look for him. I’ll search near my house. You call the others and let them know what has happened.”

“Ok…”

We hung up. I can’t believe he’s missing. The next person I call is Haruhi.

“Hey Haruhi!”

“Hey Hikaru. So do you plan on giving me a reply?”

“Well my reply was yesterday when I said I loved you too, Haruhi.”

“Oh. Well then what’s up?”

“KAORU IS MISSING!!”

“Wait! What?!”

“It’s because I blurted out ‘I love you too, Haruhi’ in front of him and he was crushed by it cause I made a promise to him when we were little and I renewed it the day before that I only liked you and I will always love him. So he’s upset with me cause I broke our promise twice!”

“HIKARU!! I’m not going to accept this at all! If Kaoru was the first to confess his feelings for you then I have no business taking you away from him. Did you ever once think not for yourself but for Kaoru?! I will never accept your love for me ever if you’re going to act this selfish and not think about your own brother! You’re supposed to keep promises Hikaru not break them! Baka! We’re better off as just friends! You better tell the others what happened. I’ll search in my area and see if I can find him.”

“H-haruhi…I’m sorry…”

“Don’t tell that to me. Tell that to your brother!”

With that she hung up and left me speechless.

What am I doing? How could I? What’s wrong with me?! Kaoru…

I call the others and tell them what happened. They all called me a heartless fool and yet they all were helping out.

Kaoru…where are you?

I think I’ve called everyone at least 10 different times asking if they’ve found him yet. I went searching everywhere for him. I went to all our favorite places. He was nowhere to be found.

Kaoru…I’m so sorry…my new promise, Kaoru, is that I will find you and bring you back home!

I bent over in exhaustion and then I heard my cell ring. It was Tamaki.

“HIKARU I FOUND HIM! HE’S AT THE PARK NEAR MY HOUSE!”

I hung up immediately. Of course he was there. That was where we used to play as kids and it was our halfway mark to Tamaki’s house. I finally reached the park. Tamaki was outside the gates and I still had my cell in my hand. I thought I had hung up on him but then I saw Kaoru…he was sitting inside the tube connecting one play set to the other. He had his chin resting on his knees, his arms wrapped around his legs, and tears still running down his face. I dropped my phone at the site of my poor twin brother. I ran over to him and hugged him tightly with the back of his head in one hand and the other around his back.

“Kaoru…”

“Hi-hikaru?”

I pull apart from him grabbing his shoulders and looking him dead center in the eyes.

“DON’T EVER RUN AWAY AGAIN! I was so…worried…and I’m sorry Kaoru!”

“Hikaru…”

My eyes started to tear up at the sight of seeing my dear brother’s face again.

“I missed you, Kaoru.”

“I missed you too, Hikaru.”

He smiled at me and I called for a ride home. When we were in the limo we couldn’t keep our hands off each other. We were sitting side by side at first but as thing’s progressed I ended up on top of Kaoru with us lying down in the longer seat of the limo. I’m holding down his wrists and straddled on top of him. I kissed Kaoru’s forehead and looked him in the eyes and said.

“I’m never letting you leave my sight again.”

Kaoru blushed and I smirked. I kissed his lips and bit down on his lower lip slightly asking for entrance and he let me in. We entangled our tongues. Kaoru trying to fight for dominance but I took over. I pulled apart from our kiss leaving a just a strand of saliva between us. Kaoru was gasping for air and had a deep red color in his cheeks.

“Hikaru...you’ve never…been this passionate at kissing before…”

I turned away and blushed.

“Tch! I just missed you is all and I realized you’re the only one I need and love.”

“Hikaru…”

He pulled me close, wrapping his arms around my neck, and kissed me again. This time leading into a long make out session it was so hot. Kaoru was making me wit every movement of his tongue. I didn’t want to control myself but we were in the limo still and almost home. I realized this but didn’t really care. We were kissing until we both could hardly breathe. We pulled apart, this time we were both out of breath with flushed faces.

“Hi-hikaru…”

“Kao…ru…”

“Hikaru…we need…to control ourselves. We’re almost home.”

I whisper in his ear.

“I know, Kaoru, but it’s so hard to keep my hands off of you.”

I lick and bite his earlobe. He shudders.

“Hi-hikaru…ah…!”

I whisper in his ear again, smirking. He struggles as I hold down his wrists again.

“You’re irresistible, Kaoru.”

“Pl-please s-stop th-that…”

He turns his head to try to pull away from my whisper. His head turned toward the middle of the limo and I just follow his ear.

“But why? I thought you liked this.”

He breaks free from my hold and pushes me away slightly.

“N-no…”

Is he about to cry?

“Kaoru…I’m sorry.”

He sits up and I pull him close with my hand under his chin and kiss him gently. We both move to the back of the limo and sit side by side. Kaoru holds my hand. I hold his but he’s squeezing my hand tighter looking out the window. I look at him.

Kaoru…

We finally arrive home. I hadn’t realized how far we were away from home. We exit the limo; I pick up Kaoru bride style, and carry him up to our room.

***

Kaoru’s POV

BRIDE STYLE?! Really Hikaru!?

I blushed the entire way up to our room and all the maids just gawked at us as we made our way. I was so embarrassed. He finally put me down but instead of putting me down at the entrance of our room he carried me over to our bed and plopped me there.

Geez…why do you do this to me?

“Hika-“

He cut me off with a kiss. I blushed immediately. He pulled away smiled and whispered in my ear.

“This is punishment for punching your dear brother in the face.”

I looked away embarrassed and blushing. He pulled my face back to meet with his and stole another kiss from me. Even though I didn’t really like how he was treating me, I could feel myself getting harder by the second.

No way! Just from him whispering and kissing me?!

He reached down to the bulge in my pants and whisper in my ear again.

“My, Kaoru, you’re already hard. How about I help you feel better, hmm?”

He made his way down my chest unbuttoning my shirt and undoing my pants, leaving me completely naked. He was still fully dressed so I felt somewhat awkward but that feeling quickly disappeared as he licked at the tip of my member. He looked up at me.

“Do you really want this Kaoru?”

I had the most embarrassed look on my face. I was double-taking between his eyes and everywhere else in the room while blushing the deepest color red. I couldn’t give him a straight answer to that question or so I thought.

“Y-yes, Hi-hikaru!”

Holy crap! I know I love him but how could I be so bold?! How does he do this to me?!

He took my hard member and stuck it in his mouth. Going up and down and then he switched to his hand. He started to pump me but…

“Oh my god, Hi-hikaru!”

I came but way too fast. He brought up his hand covered in cum to his mouth and started to lick each individual finger.

“Wow Kaoru. You came faster than usual. You must’ve wanted this badly.”

I turned away and blushed again.

“Be…quiet…”

“Kaoru…”

He kissed me gently and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He rested his forehead on mine tilted his head a little, smiled, and said.

“Too bad I’m not done with you yet.”

I looked at him slightly shocked with my eyebrow twitching.

He didn’t mean…

Before I completed the thought he had me flipped over on all fours and was already completely undressed.

“I’m sorry, Kaoru but…”

He just slammed into me as hard as he could, being completely impatient in giving me a proper warning.

“AHH!”

Tears welling up in my eyes from the pain but Hikaru felt amazing inside of me.

“Ngh…Kaoru!”

By the third thrust he had hit my prostate making me harder than I was the first time. I couldn’t believe I was on the verge of cumming only a few thrusts into it.

“Hi…karu…”

“Not…yet…Kaoru…”

With that being said he reached over under the mattress and pulled out a rubber cock ring and placed it on my throbbing member.

“HIKARU! TAKE THAT OFF!”

“We’re cumming together.”

“Hi-hikaru!”

I was in pleasure pain. It just hurt so good. Hikaru was hitting my prostate dead on with every thrust. I wanted to cum so bad.

Stupid cock ring…why does he do this to me?

“Hi...ka…ru…hah…!”

“Kao…ru…!”

He pulled off the cock ring and we simultaneously came. I collapsed on the bed panting as hard as I could, followed with Hikaru’s hard breathing against my ear. It was finally starting to cool down from our intense heat. He kissed the top of my head.

“My new promise that will never be broken is that…I promise that I will always and forever love you, Kaoru.”

He stayed on top of my back.

“Hikaru I-“

But before I could finish he had fallen asleep on me. I laughed to myself and turned over to slowly face him. I kissed him on his forehead.

“I love you too, Hikaru.”

Why does he do this so easily?

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Did u lyk it? wat'd ya think?

[Shyama101]

Oh..shiz..that was..so..AWESOME! <3 Nice Nice Niiicee!

[WhiteBanki]

thank ya

[bullet for emily]

amazingness

[shyladay12x]

yea! Sooooooooo! Awsome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[killingperfection13]

love it!!! lol damn im writing one my self but i dont think i should put it on


nice fic im so happy for yaoi

[nekoriki64]

dang that was nice you have a talent i must say lol write more!

[iloveyaoi05]

thank you so much!!! i love it...

could you write more? please?

[WhiteBanki]

haha! i am gonna write more now since i seem 2 have gained enternal free time. @ least 4 the time being

[nayaiiri]

Niiiceeeeeee
Really loved it!