Not Normal 18+ [Persona: Trinity Soul fandom]

[CallmeDeth]

Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Persona: Trinity Soul, or characters mentioned within.
Quick summary: Shin knows that life is never normal for he and Jun. Even with the world safe, nothing's normal... and Jun needs him.
Other: For now this is a one-shot. Dunno if I'll write more. Persona: Trinity Soul is an anime set after the game series. It is amazing. That is all.
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Every evening, I come in from working alongside Takuro at the clothing store and Uni. The first thing I do is take off my shoes and make my way up to Jun’s room. I always look in to make sure he’s finished his homework. This isn’t so much because I think he needs me to—though this is an important year that he can’t risk falling behind in—but because I feel like it’s my duty. As soon as I’m sure of it, I sit down to the dinner he cooked for us and we eat. We share the details of our day and I offer him advice whenever I can.

It all seems so normal from the outside. But it’s not normal, he and I. It hasn’t been normal since Ayame’s doll finally failed in her task, and aniki died. When he died, I was the elder brother. I was left with a lot of mysteries, too. What were we going to do about out future? Was Jun Jun or was he Yuki, or was he both again? Those two questions, I still don’t know everything about. However, I think that whoever is in there is in there alone.

Why?

I know this because at night he or she tends to have nightmares and cry.

Jun never had nightmares when they were two in one.

That’s just one reason that we’re not normal, Jun and I. It all began with the first nightmare. At first, it seemed so innocent. He climbed into the bed while I was still asleep, and I woke up with him in my arms the next morning. It was so innocent that I didn’t even mind. I barely even commented on it. If I could provide comfort to my sibling who was still suffering as much, if not more than, me then why not?

But somewhere along the line, the line blurred. I honestly don’t remember who started it. Was it me or was it him? Light touches, curiosity, too-intense hugs. Then he wasn’t even starting the night in his bed anymore. He was beside me, watching or reading as I read a chapter out of my text book before bed. Then, when the lights went out, the same routine would play out. He would come close to me and press against me, as if for comfort, but it would quickly become a play on either of our parts for some sort of sexual gratification.

But it was never as blunt as tonight.

Tonight, he wanted me, and plainly so. As for me? I wanted him. I couldn’t resist it any longer. If it was actually Jun in that body, he would know, too. He may not be a psychic, but if not he is definitely perceptive. It was his body that first told me it would be different this time. He didn’t get close to me. He just turned on his side and looked at me. I was easily compelled to do the same.

His hands shifted under the covers until they were resting on my chest. I moved to hold out my arms, beckoning him close like usual. Instead, he moved his hands from my chest down to the waistband of my pants. I felt my dick coming to attention, but resisted. I reached down and grabbed his hand, perhaps harder than necessary.

“This isn’t something we should do,” I whispered to him.

“Why not?” his questioning reply was in the voice of someone not devastated, nor angry, but lost.

“I don’t even know who I’d be doing it with,” I replied. “And either way, we’re siblings. Isn’t that something to think about?” The moonlight glinted off of his eyes as he turned and shifted, looking up at the ceiling.

“Would it matter who I am?” he asked. “Would you be alright with it if I were Jun? Or how about Yuki?” I shook my head.

“It’s not like that,” I protested. Even as I spoke, I noticed something. I was turned on. I was completely unable to resist the feelings rising inside of me and I desperately wanted to give in.

“It’s not? Then if I tell you, will you agree?” It was a blunt and straightforward thing to ask. It also had the added bonus of getting me the information I had wondered about for so long. But those blue eyes were so tormented in that moment that I couldn’t bring myself to demand an answer. Instead, I gave in to a desire that I had, or more, several.

This time it was me who moved closer to Jun. I pressed my lips against his and he was surprised. There was no reaction at first. I was prepared to pull back and apologize when suddenly Jun was leaning up into the kiss, answering the kiss. My hands pushed his shirt up, rubbing against his chest as I pushed him back down. I pulled his pants to his knees too.

I looked into those eyes, waiting for an answer, a yes or a no. When nothing came, I went down under the covers, repositioning myself between his legs as I freed him of the burden of his pants. I closed my mouth over him, taking him in to the hilt easily. I could hear the moaning of my name, feel his fingers intertwining with my hair, and still I didn’t know if it was he or Yuki I was giving this pleasure to. But whoever it was had been right. It didn’t matter.

With the two of us, nothing is normal.

But perhaps it’s not all that bad either.