Confession...and Realization

[Vamphire]

I can see you fidgeting out of the side of my eyes, your hands shaking as they copy the notes from the board. I can feel the heavy stares, the ominous whispers surrounding us, the way people give you dark glares.

I still cannot believe you had that courage, the courage to admit to the truth. That you dared to admit that you were gay, and in love with me.

You, gay. It surprises me, yet it doesn't. It was never a surprise, looking at your feminine features and your soft manners. Everyone loved you for your polite ways.

Yet I had assumed you were straight. We all did. After all, you were always surrounded by girls; all you had to do was quietly ask one of them out in your shy way and you could have had any of them as your girlfriend.

But you never did.

I guess it all makes sense now; you were gay and never had your eyes on their feminine features, their girlish giggles and their feminine airs. Maybe you had enough of that at home -- I had heard that you grew up in a matriarchy family, constantly surrounded by women -- or you just were fascinated by what you lacked, but you were gay.

And I did not know what to think of it.

Your confession had stunned me; I thought you wanted to talk about the chemistry project we were working on together. You were a great partner, the best I ever had. Whereas most of my athletic friends only care about sports, I could tell after our first few minutes together that you really enjoyed knowledge, the same enjoyment I have with learning.

We had clicked and became close friends. I loved hanging out with you, but it changed the day we finished our project, handed it in, presented it to the class. We received enthusiastic claps, a change in our apathetic chemistry class, but I was happy.

Until you called me out under the cherry blossoms that day.

You left me stunned, confused. It was so sudden. I am ashamed that I walked away that day, but you challenged me, challenged my beliefs in you, myself, my society. I really enjoyed being with you -- but was that love?

And now it has been a month since you have confessed to me. Our classmates overheard our private conversation and have given you hell ever since. The girls shun you, the guys make inappropriate jokes at your expense. And all the while whispers against you float in the air.

They say you should have known better, that you should have never asked me out. That I was obviously not gay like you were, that a popular athlete like me would never be gay -- it was impossible. Just look at how many girls I have gone out with and how tales of my prowess have circulated through the school.

But the truth was...they did not know me.

After class, I saw you close your notebook quietly and walk out the door, the first one to leave. Even the teachers had begun to shun you after the rumors reached the faculty room.

I packed up and left the room, quickly making excuses to those who wanted to detain me, inviting me to their little gatherings.

But there was only one gathering I wanted to attend.

I found you on the street outside, walking slowly towards your apartment. I caught up to you, reached out and grabbed your arm. You flinched under my grasp and slowly turned around. Your wide eyes grew wider when they met mine -- were you really that surprised seeing me again, your friend? Though I admit I had been avoiding you for the past month -- and your lips asked why?

And I told you the truth.

That I loved you, and it had taken me a while to see that I loved you for a long time now. Ever since I had gotten to know you while working on our chemistry project, I had slowly fallen in love with you. It was like we had chemistry, a special bond between us that is unexplainable but just happens.

So, would you go out with me?

And you cried, sinking against my chest as your fingers clenched my shirt. I hugged you, whispering that it would be alright now, that I am here. That I was sorry for abandoning you before -- I know I will never forgive myself for allowing them to destroy you slowly on the inside, your smiles growing more strained and more artificial as the days passed -- but now I am here and will always love you.

And you lifted your head and gave me a watery smile. And I returned it, leaning down to give you a kiss.

The next day, rumors flew around the school. No one could believe that I was going out with you -- you, the gay, and me, the straight jock who everyone liked. Or maybe used to like. My reputation and popularity took a beating after I started dating you, but I could care less. As long as I had you, the world could burn and decay into ruins.

But I was still the popular athlete of the school, and you became accepted, my boyfriend and a nice guy.

Actually, I became quite jealous of your sudden popularity -- the girls would squeal over you even more and the boys would flirt with you now that you were my boyfriend -- but I tempered it, knowing that I had your love.

Only I have all of your attention, only I have all of your heart.

And I love you too, with all of my heart and soul.

[Aeli]

that was amazing, your good!

[Lena]

Awesome!!! ^^

[N-sama]

Ah-ma-zing!!
Chapter 2 perhaps?
:3

[Vamphire]

Aw, you guys flatter me.

But to r a w r's request: I'm not sure I can make a chapter two without destroying what I have already written (I don't want a sequel / continuation to spoil the original story by being dull).

But if you have an idea as to how I can continue this storyline, I'll be happy to write it,

[nisioisin]

I want chapter two!!! buwahahahaha.

[Bardie]

OMG, that was incredible~! U really r good. ^^
Love the way this story was told in 2nd person POV. I actually felt what was going on in that story.

[iloveyaoi05]

i love your story...and yes, I agree with everyone....chapter 2 please?

and thanks for writing this up...this story really made me smile

[Vamphire]

OMG, that was incredible~! U really r good. ^^
Love the way this story was told in 2nd person POV. I actually felt what was going on in that story.

Thank you, but I think you mean 1st person, 'cause I used a lot of I and [/i]me[/i]s in the story.

But I'm glad you liked it; it means a lot to me when you say so

[Vamphire]

i love your story...and yes, I agree with everyone....chapter 2 please?

and thanks for writing this up...this story really made me smile

You're welcome, but I'm not sure if I can write up a Chapter 2 right now; what would the story be about? And I wrote this story a while ago (to me; my time sense is different than other people's), so I'm not sure if I can capture the essence of this story in a sequel. But I guess I can try....just let me know what you think of that?...