I'm scared to ask but, is it love? - 2

**Ryuu** · 05-27-2010 09:10 PM

“Sometimes life just seems so unreal… At times, I feel as if I’m only dreaming and one day I’ll wake up to the cruel reality of life. Frequently, you seem like one of those characters in a story… one day I’m afraid you’ll slip away from me leaving me stranded in my own sorrow. Please grasp me tightly and never let me go.”

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Two weeks, that’s how long it’s been since the little ‘incident’ in his back seat. We’ve been living our normal lives pretending as if nothing happened… kind of. Every time we’re alone I get an awkward feeling in the pit of my stomach that makes me squirm. Our once good healthy friendship has been severely damaged… the scary thing is… I don’t think it was ever just a ‘friendship.’ Although I ignored my feelings, I think I’ve always liked Dimitri more than just a friend. I always thought or at least hoped that he felt the same way… but now I know how he feels.

“Rai,” came the call from a very familiar voice. “Hey, Rai,” Dimitri said again. I turned around and glared at him trying not to seem unusual or less like my usual self. “I… I’ve been meaning to talk to you,” he said.

“Talk to me about what?” I asked curiously.

“Well…” he muttered. “The… thing. You know, um, what happened in the car,” he stuttered.

My heart lurched and I felt my face burn, I knew that we were going to have to talk about this sometime but not now. I wasn’t emotionally ready, and… I was still confused about the whole thing myself. “Oh… that,” I mumbled. “W-what about it?” I questioned trying to play it off as if it had been nothing.

“Well, I just wanted to know your thoughts on the whole thing.”

I stared in disbelief at him, “My… thoughts?”

“Yes, you know like your feelings. I know that it was sudden… and I know I haven’t given you a lot of time to think but… I thought that maybe if you felt the same way we might possibly be able to have a real relationship,” Dimitri said.

“Relationship… sudden… time…” I grumbled in an almost trance like state. I couldn’t believe the words that had just come out of Dimitri’s mouth. “I… don’t know,” I stated. “It was definitely sudden… and I just haven’t-” I wasn’t given time to finish my sentence before Dimitri pulled me closer to him. His icy blue eyes locked with mine and I felt that same awkward feeling burn stronger than ever. I couldn’t help but notice that his arm was wrapped around my waist, and for some odd reason it didn’t bother me.

“Rai… I know that I’m being straight-forward but, I can’t deny my feelings anymore. I kept them to myself because I didn’t want to jeopardize our friendship but I think it’s pretty obvious that recently our friendship has gotten pretty uncomfortable. So, I’m begging you to be honest with me, and tell me your true feelings,” he finished.

I stared almost memorized into his eyes. It felt weird talking about this… but I had no choice but to answer him truthfully, mainly because I was too shocked to think of any other excuse. “I… I’ve always had… feelings… for you…” I stated rather pathetically.

Dimitri looked down at me with a big smile on his face, “I had a feeling,” he said. “But it makes me happy that you admitted it,” he added. He pulled me into a tight hug; it felt oddly comforting so comforting in fact that when he tried to pull away I brought him back closer to me. He blinked a few times as if confused, smiled, and kissed me on the top of my head. “Rai,” he murmured into my ear. “I’ll always be here to protect you, and no one in this world can stop me from doing that. I promise that no one will ever hurt you when I’m around,” he stated confidently.

When the hug finally broke, he glared down at me with that same sympathetic look in his eyes. Even though he did look thoroughly ecstatic there was something different… like he was waiting for me to do something. Finally it hit me what the ‘thing’ he wanted me to do was.

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Quote Rai – “It’s embarrassing for me to repeat this next paragraph in words, so please don’t make fun of me.”

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I actually had to stand on my tippy toes to reach Dimitri’s mouth. I guess I never realized how much taller he is than I am. Trying to show how much I cared for him I gently pressed my mouth against his. At first I could tell that he was taken back by what I had done, but after a few minutes returned the kiss passionately.

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~ Ok, so I finished the next ‘chapter’ but obviously you would know that if you read this. Anyway, I hoped you enjoyed it and if I decide to/have the time I’ll make sure to add some more ‘action’ in the next one for you horny people that just can’t get enough sex ;] ~