Broken Song

**xgaarax** · 07-19-2010 03:04 PM

This is written by ME D:< Steal it and well... beware >.>

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I am but the guitarist of a famous band. My name? I am Aaron Sayaemora, I’m 22m and gay. I’m currently in a relationship with Ashton Hitsugaya, a friend of the lead singer, Alex Kimori. Me and Ashton have been dating for three years. We didn’t start making love to each other until recently.
As a kid I always wanted to be in a band. I’d do anything; smoke, sex, drugs, anything. Each band that said they accepted me, used and abused this for their own benefit and enjoyment. After meeting Alex and helping him found the band I’m currently in, I finally got to live my dream. I’ve stopped the use of drugs and cigarettes and drink only on occasion.

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Ashton and I are on our 47th month anniversary, almost 4 years together, and Ashton was acting funny. We’d finished our dinner and were leaving the restaurant to go back to the hotel where the band inhabited. Ashton stopped dead in his tracks, and I soon followed the action. Ashton was looking at the ground and I knew he could tell I was looking at him. Ashton looked up at me “Aaron, we can’t be together anymore for a little while” Was all he said to me before he walked off.
I froze. My heart stopped and my body went numb. I had to have been standing there for a while, because when I looked at my phone to see what time it was I had 5 missed calls from Alex. After starring at the numbers on the phone I finally decided to call him back.
“Where are you?” Alex asked.
“Infront of Kail’s home office real estate not far from the hotel” I replied a quiver in my voice.
“What’s wrong? What happened? Are you ok?” Alex asked worried.
I fell to my knees crying. My heart was broke and it burned with searing pain.
“I’m coming! Stay there!” Alex said. He hung up and 15 minutes he stood infront of me out of breath. “Aaron! Are you ok?!” he said getting down to eye level with me. He pulled me into a hug, only a friendly hug, to my knowledge he is straight.
“He… he… he left me!” I said crying harder. Alex rubbed my back saying everything will get better.
A few minutes later Alex helped me walk back to the hotel. He helped me to my bed then left. I sat there in the darkness starring blankly at the wall. An hour later something snapped. The picture of me and Ashton together on our 3 year anniversary sat on the night stand beside the bed along with my alarm clock which read 3:05 AM. My hand reached out, shaking and grasped onto the photo and threw it and the frame across the room. “Dirty liar!” I yelled crying again. I slowly walked over to the broken frame and picked up a small bag I’d hidden behind it for years. “I hope it’s still ok” I said grabbing my lighter.

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“Aaron wake up!” Alex said shaking me.
I groaned and opened my eyes. They were bloodshot from smoking ---- the night before.
“Are you high?” Alex asked looking into my eyes then catching the scent of ---- I had on me. I groaned in response. “Why?” Alex asked sitting on the edge of my bed. I didn’t answer him; it was self explanatory for the most part. “Well get ready we have a show this afternoon” he said before getting up and leaving.
I got up and walked over to my dresser. I pulled out my light grey skinny jeans with black stars on the back pockets and chains on the left side. I then got a black shirt with a red rose on the front. I walked into the bathroom and took a shower. I ran the wash cloth over my slim small framed body covering myself with soap. I then put shampoo into my shoulder length black hair. I washed my hair out then washed my body off.
After getting dressed I went down to the lobby to meet with the rest of the band. I saw Alex talking to Ashton. I stiffened up and walked away.

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After the show I went behind the building with the pot heads. Being the lead guitarist everyone was shocked at first. I was offered pot by numerous people. I accepted some from a fan I’ve seen numerous times. We got high then we walked to the bar. After getting drunk off my ass I called Alex. Though it was hard from him to understand me he eventually got the point. But instead of him coming to get me he sent Ashton.
After being forced into the car we drove to a quiet empty park. “We need to talk” Ashton said sighing.
“Bite me” I said with slurred speech.
Ashton sighed. “Aaron” he said running his hand through his longish brown hair. “I still… have feelings for you” he explained.
“I don’t anymore so go away” I retorted.
“Obviously you do because you’re drinking and doing drugs” Ashton said cupping my face with his soft gentle hands.
I began to tear up. “Ashton… why?” I cried.
“Aaron I love you but I’m going on a trip to Europe for at least a year. Long distant relationships don’t work. When I come back I will still love you. Hopefully we can continue dating. Aaron, wait for me” Ashton said kissing me.
“Ashton! Just leave me alone!” I said pushing him away. “You broke my heart! Driven me to go crazy because of that!” I retorted.
“Aaron! I’m not going away. Alex asked me to do this so I did! I knew you’d pull something like this. I’m taking you back to the hotel” Ashton said losing his patience.
“I’m not going with you!” I said looking away.
“Fine” Ashton said throwing me over his shoulder and walking to the car. He put me inside and drove me back to the hotel.

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It’s been a week since me and Ashton broke up. My chest still aches and I’m drunk and high almost every day every hour. I sit in my dark room for the most part barely eating. Alex brings me in meals and I barely eat them. Alex has made numerous efforts to get me out of my room, to cheer me up, to get me to eat, all of which have failed.
Alex walked through my door with lunch. “Aaron” he said sitting beside me. “Please eat” he said with a crack in his voice giving away that he was about to cry.
“Yeah Aaron” RJ the bassist said walking in.
“We’re worried” Damian the drummer said from the doorway. And Leo the keyboardist stood beside him.
“I can’t!” I said breaking out into tears. I felt Alex’s arms around me holding me. “Please” he said a few tears falling from his eyes.
“No! I can’t!” I said again. “My appetite is dead along with my heart!” I yelled.
“Shut up! Just shut up!” Leo yelled. “Just eat! Get over it! You’re not only injuring yourself but you’re injuring us all! You’ve made Alex cry every evening! You’ve made us cancel two shows this week because you’re never sober! Just get over yourself and start thinking of those you’re affecting!” Leo yelled.
We were all shocked.
“Fine! I will think of the better of the band!” I said grabbing a large piece of glass from the picture frame I broke a week ago. I took the glass and held it to my chest ready to stab.
“No!” Alex screamed grabbing onto the glass tightly, the edges digging into his skin as well as my own.
“He’s gone crazy!” RJ stated scared.
“Restrain him!” Damian ordered.
I was in shock as they all restrained me. Alex was on the floor crying while Damian, RJ, and Leo all held me. Leo let got and went to get something that would restrain my arms and legs. He came back with ropes. I looked as if I was a captured man being helded for ransom. Damian, RJ, and Leo left the room leaving me and Alex alone.
Alex looked up at me. “Aaron…” he sighed. “Don’t ever do that again! Or I will too!” he said getting up and sitting beside me. Alex force fed me that afternoon and night. After he was finished doing the dishes he came back to my room. “Aaron me and the other guys have all decided. We’re sending you to a mental hospital” He explained.
“No!” I yelled. “I’m not going!” I retorted.
“You don’t have a choice” Alex replied, “We’ve already let them know that you’ll be coming tomorrow. I’m driving you. Please Aaron. Just do this, get better, for me” Alex said kneeling in front of me.
“I don’t need help! I’m fine!” I sighed.
“You tried to commit suicide earlier! You need help!” Alex growled.
“Whatever I’m going to sleep” I said laying down still tied up. I never did hear Alex leave. I was out in a matter of minutes.

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The car ride to the mental hospitol was mostly quiet until Alex sighed and asked if I was ok.
"Yeah" I replied quietly
"It's for your own good" Alex then said.
Alex's phone began to ring. He reached into his pocket and pulled out the phone. He flipped it open and held it up to his ear. "Hello?" he answered. "Yeah. He's right next to me." he then said. "Ok" was his final reply before handing me the phone.
I took the phone and looked at it then held it up to my ear. I didn't say a word into the phone.
"Aaron...?" Ashton's voice said sounding as if he was crying. "Aaron?!" he then said angrily. I still didn't answer.
He let out a sigh. "Well Aaron. IF you're there I'm so sorry for the pain I've caused you. "Please eat again!. Stop smoking ----, and over drinking!" He said beginning to cry a little harder. "And... and... and please dont commit suicide!" Ashton then said full out crying.
Tears came to my eyes. I handed the phone back to Alex silently. Alex told Ashton he'd text him in a little then hung up. "YOu miss him" Alex said breaking the silcence between us.
"Shut up!" I hissed.
Alex did just that. He drove through 2 big gates attached to brick walls about 10 feet high. He parked in a parking spot and looked at me. "I'll write you letters... every other day. Promise" he said before getting out and coming to my side of the car and helping me out. He escorted me inside the place where I was thrown a hospitol gown and told to get changed into it. I denied their demand and was dragged in by a male nurse.
He stripped me of my clothing and seached each seam, pocket, and hole for something... anything. He made me put the gown on then threw me my boxers after thruroughly checking them. Once dressed he walked me out. I looked at Alex and glared at him. He gave me a sympethetic look. My eyes begging Alex not to leave me here. The lady at the reception counter turn to the male nurse and nodded then looked to Alex.
"You can leave. We'll keep you updated on Aaron and his counciling sessions." She smiled.
Alex nodded. "I'll write you every other day. Promise" he said again smiling.
I replied with a sigh and watched his form disappear through the door. The male nurse then walked me to a blank white room with no door, a bed, dresser, and desk. The dressed was filled with more white hospitol gowns. The desk had nothing and was even proofed from suicidal people. The floor was a soft cushony type tile to keep someone from cracking their head on the floor.

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The 6 AM wake up call started my first day in this hospitol. I was sent to do a few physical and blood tests and told to eat breakfast. I was lead to the cafeteria and got food. ONce my estort left I threw my food out. After breakfast I was taken to my first therapist. This one specialized in drug abuse.
"What started your use of drugs?" Was his first question. No hi, how ya doin? Oh well this wasn't supposed to be fun and enjoyabled I guess.
I didn't respsond to the question.
"Mr. Sayaemora. Please talk" He sighed. For the rest of the two hour session we sat in silence. My drug abuse councilor wrote in a folder that had my name in it. Eventually an escort came to get me.
I was taken to the cafeteria for lunch and told to get something to eat. I waved my escort off and took a seat at a tabled without getting the food I was told to get.
"Aaron you need to eat. OR you'll start being force fed" my escort warned.
I ignored him and starred at the table blankly. It was liked that until I was taken to my second therapist. This on specialized in Alcohol abuse.
"Good afternoon Aaron" he greeted smiling.
I gave him a wave of acknowledgement.
"Well let's get started. First of all it's written in here you've been abusing drugs and alcohol. Am I correct?" he asked.
Silence.
"Ok... also your drug councilor has written you refused to talk. Why?" he asked.
Once again no respsonse from me.
"Aaron. We cant help you until you tell us whats wrong" he sighed.
I still refusted to talk.
He gave up and made his own annotations in my folder.

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So after my silent alcohol seesion I was taken to my room and got to sit around out of boredom for 2 hours. I managed to fall asleep. When my escort came back he had to wake me up. He took me to the cafeteria where I once again refused to eat. After the usual hour long dining period I was taken to my final councilor of the day. Specialization? Suicide counciling.
"Aaron. You'ce refused to eat all lunch peroids today. True?" he said once I sat down.
I nodded.
"And you wont talk?" He then questioned.
I nodded again.
"If I ask you yes or no questions will you give me a response?" he asked.
I nodded yet again.
"Ok first off. My name in Jaime Jyuu. I am 28 and this if my first job with helping someone who has attempted suicide. If you want to know more just ask" he smiled. "Anyway did you mean your suicide threat?" he asked.
I responded with a nod.
"Ok." He frowned. "This would be easier if you'd speak but I wont push you. I can wait." Jaime smiled. "Also. Here is where you will be able to recieve and write letters. And if you dont start eating you WILL be force fed and have to see another councilor for that too" Jaime informed me.
I nodded. "Ok" I said breaking the silence.
Jaime's face lightened up and he smiled. "Ok so what drove you to want to commit suicide?" he asked.
No response.
Jaime sighed. "Ok... so how are you feeling now?" He asked.
I didn't answer again.
He asked a few more yes no questions; I neither nodded nor shook my head.
At the end of my session I heard Jaime on the phone. I froze when I heard the name Alex. I ran out of the room not waiting for my escort and went straight to my room. I sat on the bed and hugged my knees. I"d gotten so emotional as of recent. NOw just the thought of Ashton or Alex would make me want to cry.
After sitting on my bed for a good hour or so with small crying sessions, Jaime walked in. Joy the once I didn't want to see at the moment. He sat quietly at the foot of my bed. We sat in silence for a few.
"You cant leave without your escort" Jaime said softly. "Sorry if I triggered something to upset you. Want to talk about it?" he asked.
I didn't respond. Before we knew it a nurse walked in and said I had to go to sleep. Jaime looked at me. "We'll talk tomorrow" he said showing me a small smile then left. I then went to sleep.

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It'd been siz days of not talking or eating. I met with my councilor's and escort daily. Instead of being lead to the cafeteria for breakfast Iw as taken to the medical ward. When I walked in I had a *black star ouut on my hospitol gown. I'd been given three at the beginning, and got another on my 5th day here. The stars standed for certain things wrong with a person, so the councilors know and everyone around them anyway. I was told to sit down, so I did. One of the many medics sat with me and handed me food. "Eait it" he ordered. I stared at it and gave it back. Before I knew it I'd been seized and was being force fed. After I finished 'eating' I was escorted to my Drug abuse counciling, sitting through it silently. Then I was taken to the medics where I was force fed again, then taken to my Alcohol abuse session then to my room.. I sat there bored out of my mind for two hours then taken to my suicide counciling session.

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I walked in and Jaime handed me a letter. I opened it and caught the scent of Alex's cologne:

Dear Aaron,

Sorry this is the first time I've written you since you were enrolled in that place. I"ve been getting a lot of negative phone calls about your behavior and it's taken me sometime to think my thoughts through.
I've gotten a call from Ashton recently. He apologizes again for what he'd put you through and misses yyou soooooo much. As do the rest of us.
Sorry if this paper has tear drops on it. I'm just so worried about you! Please start eating again! Talk to your councilors. Please get well soon!"
Sincerely,
Alex

The paper had, had tear spots on it and I only added more. Jaime walked over and rubbed my back. "He's really worried" he said in a calm tone. "Wanna write back or talk to me?" he asked.
"Kill me now... please" I said clenching my fists.
Jaime pulled his hand away astonished. "W-what?" he asked nervous.
"Kill! Me! NOW!" I demanded.
Jaime replied with a no.
I reached forward and grabbed a pair of sizzors and held the blade part to my neck ready to slit it open.
"Aaron! Calm down!" Jaime said slihtly beginning to panic. He slowly walked around me to his desk and set a button thing down. I'd made a small cut on my neck, making it bleed but not enough to kill me... yet. Before I made the final deep, killing, cut I was restrained. The scizzors were taken away and a medic was looking at the cut I'd made. Ok it was deep but not deep enough and not on my main artery. As the medic began to steralize the cut and bandage it I overheard Jaime, and some other councilors and escorts discussing something. And it was dexided I was to be watched, every minute.

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Two days later I expected another letter, since I wasn't talking to any of my councilors with the occassional opening up with Jaime I had to just visit Jaime... all day. He and I ate every meal together, which by ate I mean he had to force feed me still, anbd spent all of the day together. Anyway I was expecting a letter from Alex when I was brought into Jaume's room. Everything was put away and locked up. Jaime noticed my sad expression for not getting a letter.
He sat up straight and looked around earching for something I might het ahold of. Nothing.
"Did Alex send me a letter?" I asked a crack in my voice.
"No. We need to talk" Jaime sighed.
"Yes. We do" Alex said walking in.
My eyes brightened up. If I weren't still in a straight jacket type thing I woudlf have hugged him.
"About what?" I asked noticing Alex's angry but sad expression.
"Your behavior" Jaime answered.
Alex took a seat that was beside Jaime.
"I'm your only councilor which means your my own patient. I have all the time to hear your story. But first Alex, I'll leave you two alone" Jaime said getting up and exiting the room.
"What the hell Aarong?!" Alex said letting his anger out.
"I told you that if you do something to yourself I will do something equilivant" he said rolling up his sleeve, showing me three long, wide, deep, cuts from the wrist to the elbow. "I spend yesterday crying and sitting in the ER just to hold up my damn word! Ashtong knows too!He's greatly disappointed in you along with the rest of us. And most of all I am disappointed with you" Alex explained.
The cuts made my jaw drop. I was astonished he'd do something like that. I was stunned. My thoughts were gone and I only focused on the cuts. We sat in this silence for a good fice minutes or more until Jaime walked in right after Alex hid his cuts so he didn't get put in this place like me.
"Aarong? Are you ready to talk?" he asked.
"Removed this jacket then yes" I compromised.
"I'll stop him if he tries anything" Alex said glarring at me.
Jaime nodded and removed my straight jacket thing. I was shirtless and in the pants that went with the kaclets.
"Ok. Question 1: What drove you to want to commit suicide the first time?" Jaime asked.
"It was for the better of the band" I stated. Even Alex knew that.
"Why's that?" Jaime asked.
The scene flashed through my mind. The yelling, the crying, everything. It stung my heart to remember Alex's face then and there. I clenched onto my heat.
"aarong!" Alex exclaimed worried.
"are you ok?" Jaime asked.
"Y-yeah just a small pain in my chest" I replsied. "After everyone in the band was in my room Leo, the keyboardist, began to yell at me. I'd been worrying everyone by not eating because I wouldn't. My body wouldn't allow it. Leo said thinkg of those I am affecting. So I did and was going to remove the problem. Me." I explained.
"What caused your not to be able to eat?" Jaime asked.
Alex looked at me.
"He... he... he broke up with me" I said beginning to cry.
Alex walked over ot me and embraced me. "Aaron it's only temporary. He still loves you. He still wants you" Alex told me. I cried for a few more minutes and then forced myself to stop.
"Who is he?" Jaime asked.

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"Ashton... Ashton Hitsugaya... my... lover" I forced myself to say that name. To say those words. But the real question was... was Ashton still my lover? After all he HAD said we were through... but then he said he still loved me. I'm at a lost with this entire situation but whatever.
"Hmm... well if he broke up with you then he isn't your lover anymore" Jaime said in a matter-of-fact tone. Well I was given my answer. I guess he wasn't my lover anymore. Words I did not want to hear.
"But he still want Aaron!" Alex protested. He knew Ashton like he knew me. Inside and out.
"Then why did he say that they broke up?" Jaime asked.
"He didn't want to be in a long distance relationship..." Alex replied. "This is all a misunderstanding!" he added.
"Misunderstanding my ass!" I hissed. "He said 'Aaron we're through' then walked off!" I growled.
"Aaron! You know he still loves you!" Alex retorted. "You know he was just trying to make it easier for you... yes the approach to it was kind of bad but still! He didn't think you'd go this far" Alex sighed. "Neither did I" he said under his breathe.
So now all of this was MY fault?! Yes the drugs, alcohol and the suicide threats were me... but what Ashton said was what drove me to it! But it's MY fault! "I'm tired of this bull!" I said standing up and walking to the door.
"Aaron you can't leave!" Jaime said to me.
"Watch me" I said opening the door and walking out leaving the door wide open. The two starred out it blankly at my retreating figure as I disappeared down the long white hallway with those cheesy posters that would say 'be happy!' or 'dont do drugs' or... 'we're here to help!' All of which just pissed me off more. I walked past numerous people who looked at me but decided not to chase after.
As I made my way down a fifth long ass hall I heard the sound of running feet. Two pairs actually. Joy, Alex and Jaime. The two I wished for once that weren't coming after me.
I noticed a supply closet to my left and quickly made my way into it watching the two race pass it and down the hall. Once sure that I was no longer being pursued I came out of the closet. Haha yes I know a funny pun there. I came out of the damn closet like that years ago. Anyway I came out of the supply closet and walked down the hallway again. I walked pass a few more guys and girls and noticed a sign that said 'Stairs to the roof'. Everything in this place was labeled. Even the damn urinal. Like none of us knew what the hell a urinal was. Eitherway. The roof. Sounded relaxing. I opened the door and slipped inside to the stairway that was also off limits, but I didn't care. I climbed the stairs and went onto the roof. It was only a one floored building. But it was big enough so they didn't need a second.
I sat down on the roof and watched the sun set. Before I knew it I was watching Alex's car drive off through the gates. "I'm so sorry" I said to no one but myself. Though I had only left because I couldn't handle the words they were saying I did feel guilty.
After it was dark out the door finally opened behind me. I jolted up to my feet and stared at Jaime in the face. It was nice seeing the stars since I hadn't for a while. But seeing Jaime ruined it. "I know. I know" I said before he could manage words. I walked over to him and he just looked at me.

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"Aaron..." Jaime said disappointed.
"I know. I know!" I replied knowing he was just gonna tell me 'I'm disappointed as is Alex. Blah blah blah.
"You dont know. If you dont start behaving we're going to have to kick you out of the facility. Alex said if that happens you're permanently kicked from the band, he called Ashton, Ashton said that he would stay in Europe, and so on. You will be all alone." Jaime explained.
Talk about slap to the face! I looked at him. "Fine." I growled. "When. where, and how do we start" I then said.
Jaime got a grin on his face. "Tomorrow. My office. I'll start" He said walking to my room. "Go to bed. You're wearing your gown tomorrow not the straight jacket clothes" he added then left.
Of course I was on probation. Someone was scheduled in my room or with me 24/7 even when I pissed! Either way I laid down and drifted to sleep.

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In the morning Jaime dismissed my guard and instead of the guard watching me change. Jaime did. I think he likes me. Eitherway I got dressed and walked to Jaime. "Fine. Now what?" I asked. He walked with me to his room. He gave me breakfast, which I ate! We finished and he set his plate down.
"Ok. Aaron. Where does your depression really come from?" he asked folding his hands in his lap.
I leaned back. "I'll tell you my life story. Though its quite sad" I said and there I started.

"Please! I'll do anything!" Begged the 7 year old Aaron.
"Clean my room!" A child demanded.
"Do my chores!" Another said.
"Do my homework!" another child said. They were all older than Aaron.
"But I cant do your homework I am 3 years younger and thus 3 years behind in what you've learn" Aaron explained.
"Does it look like I care?" The boy said.
And so Aaron went off and cleaned the one kids room, did the other kids chores, and even attempted the homework for the final kid. Aaron always had musical talent. He was especially good at guitar. The kids in the band accepted him after he proved he'd do anything. On their first gig they said they were playing at a large building on North street. Aaron went there and found out that it was abandoned and locked up.

"That is sad" Jaime commented.

"Anything you say?" A sneer look on the brunettees face. "Ok then. Give me a manicure, pedicure, shave my hairy legs. Run through school naked, and then your in." she grinned.
And so the 15 year old Aaron agreed. Finally he agreed and did as told. On the day of the school streaking he skipped.
"I knew you were a chicken!" the girl hissed over the phone.
"N-no I just had to... prep myself. I'll be there in a few" he explained.
And so it happened.

By that point I was lost in my horrible memories. The laughs, the grins, the pointing. It all was humiliating.

"Get down on your knees!" growled a guy about 17. The same age as Aaron was.
Aaron obeyed and kneeled infront of the man.
The man undid his pants and pulled out his manhood. "No give me pleasure!" he demanded.
Aaron gave a disgusted sigh. 'I wanna be in a band more than anything!' he thought. This time he was sure to believe this guy. He seemed legit. After helping the guy be pleasured the guy began to 'pleasure' Aaron. Aaron didn't mind it until he had to return it.
After that the guy drove with aaron to their first gig. Aaron was excited. 'Finally! I knew he was legit!' he thought happily. They did their gig and then it happened.
"Sorry dude. You're not cut out for a band" the man said trying not to chuckle.
And so Aaron walked home after smoking a bag of ----, drinking some alcohol and being beaten up a little.

"The human race can be so cruel. But why? Why did you do those things?" Jaime said.
"Because! I said I would do anything!" the words echoed in my mind. "And then I met Alex. He asked for nothing from me and we made the band. Then I met Ashton" I replied.

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Me and Jaime had spent the rest of that day just talking about My past. Jaime stood up giving me the insentive that the session was over with, the only thing was, when I glanced at the clock it still said we had 2 and a half hours left.
"Aaron, we're going to go for a walk outside since all you've been able to do was sit around inside, the only deal is... you dont run away. Got it?" Jaime explained.
Outside...? Freedom? Run away? Great idea... I thought. Wonder what would happen if I did I then thought.
"First we'll get some dinner, then we'll play in the game room in here then go outside since this place is beautiful at night" Jaime listed off.
I looked at him. A small smirk playing but I quickly wiped it off. "Yes, fine" I replied and stood up.
Jaime and I walked out of the room. We strolled down to the dining hall. I was told to take a seat, so I did. Jaime brought over 2 plates of spaghetti since it was a holiday week they were having special food rarely served around here.
We ate dinner slowly then stood up, threw out a trash, and walked down to the game room that I had no idea that existed. I stood on one side of an Air Hockey table and Jaime stood on the other-side. The puck swished from one side to the other the sound of our dark blue pieces that push around the puck to keep it from getting in the goal.
"I win!" I cheered with a true smile on my face.
"Fair win" Jaime smiled. "One more game should do it" Jaime said walking over to the chess set sitting on a table.
I sat down on the side with the white pieces where as Jaime sat on the side with the black pieces. Our game proceeded and Jaime won. He then took me to the front doors. "Remember. No running away" He said before unlocking the door and walking me outside.
The two of us walked toward the lake then just around the place once we were far enough from the institution something inside of me told me to run... I wanted to... but if I did I'd be all alone, the true thing I guess I feared. My hand reached over to Jaime's and took his hand in mine.
Jaime glanced at out hands, gave a small smile then pulled away. "I'm sorry, but you're taken" he said with just the faintest indication of sadness.

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After watching the sunset and then looking at the stars for about an hour we had to go back in. For once I was relaxed around Jaime.
"Ok Aaron, get some sleep. We're gonna work hard tomorrow" Jaime said as he switched places with my guard. Jaime left giving me a genuine smile.
I closed my eyes and slumber took over my body, leaving me to my dreams...

"We're through" Ashton said... the words stung even in a dream. Aaron was kneeling on the pavement crying and Jaime walked up. "It's ok Aaron, I'm here" he said smiling and extending out a hand to help Aaron up. Aaron glanced over to where ashton had been... he was gone, so he took Jaime's hand and was lifted up to his feet.
Aaron and Jaime appeared in a fancy restaurant with a candle-lit dinner. So romantic. "So tell me a little about yourself" Jaime said staring into Aaron's eyes.
Aaron's cheek flushed. "Uhm..." then everything went black! Jaime and the dinner table and surroundings were being sucked into a dark cloud. Aaron was running in a white endless box chasing after what? He wasn't sure but he was chasing after something. He ran, tripped, and landed on his knees crying. "Dont go..." he said with a small squeaky voice. Aaron woke up with a small scream causing his guard to wake up with a start. "What's wrong?" he growled.
"I need Jaime..." Aaron whispered not being able to comprehend why he need Jaime...