Kibishi & Nemuri

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Hii everyone ^__^
Well... i want to make a story
Its just an urge....

Why did this all just suck? Everything just completely gets ruined whenever I touch it. It all just turns to sand whenever it reaches my fingertips, useless sand that runs through my fingers and fills up the hourglass of time. Everything isn't right anymore. Nothing feels normal to me. Time passes and I still feel useless and evil. I don't want to be hated anymore than I already am. Nobody seems to listen to anything I say anymore, if it's something that has to do with them they still won't listen. What's wrong with me? Am I supposed to be like this? Is it supposed to stay this way forever?

Kibishi & Nemuri
___________________Isolation___________________

---My existence feels more like a dream than reality. I think everyone feels this way, but I'm not sure anymore. Ever since my dad died four years ago was when I felt like I lost everything. Mom quit listening to me, everyone at school didn't even talk to me anymore, and my best friend won't speak to me. I am alone. It's not fair at all when I see people laughing together at lunch or whenever I see a married man and woman strolling down the street talking about where they are going or 'love', how much they 'love' each other. I hate the word love, if you love something it always changes or fades away. I don't love anything anymore, my heart is filled with pure hatred for anything that loves. Everything just sucks.
---My feet were hitting the pavement harder with every step I took to school. This school was horrible. Everyone was so popular and talkative here, except me. I am the only one that differs and is ignored. The teachers don't even like me anymore. Why was the world ignoring me, ignoring my entire existence. The last time i spoke to someone was about a month ago because my best friend came up to me and told me this exactly: "I don't want to hang around you anymore." And he was gone. I never spoke to him again. It was all so simple. I did talk to my mom daily only thanking her for the food she made, telling her how pretty she looked every morning, and asking her about what she would like to do, but she didn't say "Your welcome", "Thank you.", and she wouldn't answer to any of my "why?" questions. She ignored me too. It was all so horrible, my own mom won't speak to me anymore. She wouldn't ask me anything or answer my questions, so I quit talking to everyone. The teachers didn't call on me whenever I raised my hand in class, so I stopped raising it. I never had any missed calls or texts on my cell phone, so I just threw it away. Am I supposed to be so weird? So weird that everyone stays away from me? Will it be like this forever? People look at me, and whisper. I exist, but I don't mean anything to anyone. Why was I here?
---The school bell rung as I got my stuff out of my locker. I don't even want to go to class, no one would notice me. I went to the boy's bathroom and stayed in there crying. There wasn't any need to cry, I didn't know why I was so sad. What's wrong with me?

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Kibishi and Nemuri

___________________The Approach___________________

---School ended quickly today and it was just as sucky as any other regular school day. I growled as I watched the dating teenagers in my grade hug and walk home together, the girls would squeal about something in this book, and the teachers would get in their fancy cars and drive home. I am the only one alone. Why? Why me? Why not somebody else? Life isn't fair. It's too hard to follow along with this play and I just wished that someone could just come and save me from this Earth. Take me somewhere where I can be surrounded by people who will listen, who will care for me, and with people who love me. It's impossible to escape this world. I am trapped, alone, and scared. I talk, no one listens. Why was it like this?
---I stepped on the back porch and threw my back pack on the steps as I went through the woods. I did this every day, hoping that maybe I would find someone or something. I don't know what I want to search for, I just want something. Something to talk to, something to know, something to love. Maybe what I am looking for is myself? Is it me? I don't understand. Even if I am nice to others they don't return any of it. My comments are never thanked. My questions aren't answered. My life leads on alone with no meaning. What was I here for?
---My eyes caught something move. "Hello?" I could hear the tremble in my voice. Why was I scared? I focused up and glanced around. Is it just a cat or something? Probably... I shouldn't be freaked out over a cat. It was stupid. "Kibishiiiiii-kuuuun" I heard the wind whisper in my ear and I shivered. "Kibishiii-kuuun!!" it got louder and I looked up towards the sky. "Why hello there!" I looked straight up at big neon orange eyes. "WHO ARE YOU!!?!" I screamed trying to turn around but I tripped and fell on my back. I was now officially scared. "Nemuri! I thought you would know me by now Kibishi-kun" He laughed and reached for my arm. Who was this guy? What was he doing in my backyard? "Don't call me 'Kibishi-kun'. I don't know you! How would I remember you if we never even met!?!" I yelled pulling my arm back. This guy had blue hair and bright eyes. How was that possible? How can someone have blue hair and orange eyes? Oh, hair dye and contacts. This guy looked good enough, I wouldn't think he would need to change his hair and eyes. Wait, did I just say he looks good? "You don't know me? I thought you would remember me by now. That sucks. I do know you Kibishi-ku.. Would you like it better if I called you Kibishi-chan?" He sat down casually as his personality sort of changed to serious. "I am no girl. Kun is fine, but how do you say you know me?!" I pushed myself backwards as he stood back up again. "I know everything about you. I can't tell you why I do, it's not supposed to be told why I am here." He held out his hand and I refused. "Yet, another person who will not answer me. Why are people like you?! Why won't they listen to me!? Why!!?" I shouted and stomped away from him. "Listen Kibishi. I don't want to hurt you because... Just listen to me for a minute! I'll listen to you. It's what you want, right? You just want a person to talk to then fine, I'll be your slave. Kibishi-sama, tell me what you want." He took my arm and pulled me to him. Why was he hugging me!?! "I want to listen to you. I want to be your friend. I want to. Its not because I refuse to be or I am forced but I want you." I froze in his arms as he hugged me closer. "Y-y-you want me?" I could feel my eyebrow twitch. "I want you more than anything in the world Kibishi-sama." His voice was so smooth. Why did someone like him want me?! I am a GUY.. I hope he knows that. "Fine. No hugging." I pushed him away and walked further away as I felt him walking behind me, but i couldn't hear it. Was he a ghost?
---"Why are you following me?! I'll be your friend but just stay out of my life. Go home or something. I'm sure your wife is worried." I felt the firmness in my voice as I tried to run away from him. I was already scared enough with the hug and the fact that he knows me. Was he some type of stalker rapist? "I don't have a wife. Please, order me by my name if you want me to do something. Any wish, I will grant to you. Just promise to talk to me Kibishi-sama. I will be yours. Just promise me you will speak to me please. It's all I ask of you." "What are you talking about! I don't want a servant, I just want someone who can hear me! I want someone to talk to, I want someone who cares. I don't want you. Go away Nemuri-san." I picked up my back pack from the porch and spun around telling him to leave me alone. He was gone. Just like everyone else that left me. Stay gone. I don't want you Nemuri. You don't matter to me.

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Kibishi and Nemuri

___________________Replay___________________

--- The night we met, I felt bad. I didn't want him to interfere with my problems, but why did he want me to talk to him so badly? I did want to talk to someone and for them to listen but what would I talk about? 'Love' or something... There was really nothing I could say to make anything different that what it already is, so whats the point in talking to anyone? They wouldn't remember, they wouldn't care. There is no point. So, what am I supposed to do? Cry more? Wish him back? None of that matters. It wouldn't make a difference if I called him back to me, what could he do? Nobody can just heal over hate wounds, could they? Why did he want to try if he's only going to get hurt with me. There was no point.
---About a month went by and nothing was different than anything that ever happened. Nothing happened to be honest, I just met some strange ghost like guy, what's the big deal? Why do I keep thinking about that day though if it wasn't a big deal? He was creepy anyway. I think I could admit, I want him back for some reason. I went into the woods again and sat where he first appeared. I come to this exact spot every day for some reason. Whenever I get home I automatically walk here. It's not that I want to come here everyday, but something pulls me here, it lulls me on this very spot. Why? "Nemuri-san... Listen to me. Come back." I whispered under my breath hesitantly. Did I truly want him back? "Kibi-kun!!" I got tackled from behind and we fell on the ground. "What is the matter with you?! I only called you back." I turned away from his face. I was happy? Happy he came back... I was happy he heard me. "I'm so glad you want me too! I tried to reach you Kibishi-kun! I couldn't get to you. I tried so hard. It was a true nightmare." He smiled at me as I looked further away. "I don't want you. I only want someone to talk to right now. I'm using you." He stood up and reached for my hand again. "You know you want me to stay with you." Nemuri's voice turned deep again and I stood up on my own. "I don't need your assistance, and didn't I tell you to stop hugging me?" I dusted off my pants and stuck my head up high.
---Nemuri is really tall and skinny for someone that looks his age. He looks like a panther or some type of cat. It's weird. "No. You didn't order it, you simply told me not to." He smiled at me. Isn't that the same thing, doofus? I started to walk and he caught my hand. "What do you want now?" I asked him annoyed. "You. I said I would always want you. I want to know if I can hold your hand. Can I Kibi-sama?" He asked politely and I firmly told him "No." This guy was really awkward to be around. He took my hand anyway and intertwined our fingers smiling. "Why do you want to get so close to me?!! And quit acting like we are dating!!! I don't like you like that! I'm not into guys!!" I tried pulling away but I failed. "Well, have you ever tried it before?" He smirked at me and chuckled. I shook my head, who would!? I didn't want to EVER date another guy. Its just weird! I don't understand how some people do it... They must be really desperate. "You can't dis it if you've never tried it." He smiled and we walked closer and closer to my house. What if my mom saw this?! Oh, she wouldn't care. What if someone else saw it?! They wouldn't care either. I didn't want to hold this guy's hand at all but he wouldn't let go. So, I just gave up. "Have you tried it then?" I looked at him awkwardly. "No, but I want to." He looked at me like I was some type of king. This guy was so gay, it wasn't even funny. "Nooo thank you!" I tried to pull away again but he only pulled me closer. Closer to his face. Closer to his lips.
---He kissed me, and for the one time in my life I felt loved for some reason. I didn't know why he kissed me, but it felt beautiful. I could feel him smile on my lips as he pulled away. "WHAT WAS THAT!?!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "Did you like it?" He asked me softly. "NO!!! Nemuri-san, don't EVER do that again!" I wiped my mouth as he nodded. "Allright Kibishi-kun... I promise not to." He laughed. This wasn't really all that funny. He just wasted my first kiss. I was pretty pissed at him. "Go away Nemuri-san, pick me up tomorrow from school. Then I'll talk to you. You ruined it for today." I closed my eyes and when I opened them back up he was gone. I felt like slapping him for some reason. This was exactly like a replay. Almost exactly like what happened before. Did I used to know him? Why would he act that way if I didn't know him? No one would kiss a stranger the second day they met them. We must have met somewhere before, but how could I not remember him? Why was he here? Who was the real Nemuri?

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Kibishi and Nemuri

___________________After School___________________

--- The warm air felt nice on my face as I walked out of the school's exit door. To be honest, everything still sucked, but I felt a little excited somehow today. I don't know why I was looking forward to meeting Nemuri-san here today. Why I was looking forward to talking to him made me think that maybe he would think that I liked him back, which I don't! I hate everyone that loves because it's just stupid. Things change and people come and go, so there was no point in me loving anyone if they wouldn't love me back. Nemuri would though, wouldn't he? To be honest, I don't understand myself completely. I didn't understand anything about Nemuri-san though. I really want to know him. Maybe, I want to love him too? No! That's gross! I can't love a guy! It isn't right!
---"You coming Kibi-kun?" He smiled at me as I walked to the street. He was on the other side and I ran across. No one cared that I was walking with some stranger that looks like a 22 year old? That shows how much the world cares of me. Most people would regularly call the police and tell them a pedo was following their 14 year old son around everywhere. My mom didn't care either. Why did everyone ignore me? That's the only answer I want to know. Why? "Nemuri-san! Where are we going?" I caught up to his fast silent pace. He really did remind me of some type of cat. He was tall and lean with slightly hunched shoulders, his blue hair came down to the middle of his throat and in the front it would be swished on one side covering up half his eye but not completely. He was the best looking guy I've ever seen. I didn't like the kiss though. It made me feel sort of like a hooker or something. I think Nemuri is starting to grow on me somehow. I won't let him get close to me though, after all, I just want to speak out my feelings and he only wants 'me' ... That doesn't really help the fact that I don't want to get close to him. I just want to know more about him, why he knows me, and why people ignore me. Three simple questions that may never be answered.
--- "We are having dinner together tonight and you are spending the night with me. There is no school tomorrow, right?" He smiled down at me as I looked at him like he was crazy. I couldn't spend the night with a pedo! None the less, a gay guy! What if he tries something!?! "That would be weird! I can't sleep over at your house! I don't even know how old you are!!" I yelled at him. That would be really awkward, all I wanted to do was maybe talk and let him walk me home or something! I don't want to go to his house! With him! Alone! "I am 18 years old Kibishi, you know that too. And you've spent the night at my house before so don't act all 'eww' on me now! Believe me, its just a sleepover. No one will care anyway." He took my back pack off of me and slid it over his right wrist. "Your so cute when your mad at me Kibi-kun." Nemuri smiled and laughed. He thinks everything is a joke, doesn't he? Life is harder than he thinks. Especially when your me and your trying to get people to at least notice you. "What's with that face Kibi-kun? Is something wrong?" He leaned over to me and caught my eyes with his. "No." I turned away. He caught my face then kissed me again for a second time.
---"Why do you keep doing that?!!" I yelled pulling away from him embarrassed by all the people around us. They didn't care anyway. "What, kissing you? You like it." "Well I ordered you to NEVER do it again! Do you understand me Nemuri-san?" "Well, I can't restrain myself. Your too cute. It isn't fair that you don't like me at all. May I kiss you tonight? Maybe the third will change your mind. Please, don't hate me for it but I just want to make you love me." He caught my eyes with his again as I hesitated. "Nemuri..." I muttered and shook my head "Alright." I gave up. A third kiss wasn't going to get me to like him any more than the other 2. I don't like the way I feel kissing a guy. It was strange. "Thank you Kibishi-sama." He kissed my forehead softly and we walked to the diner... Hopefully the date would be fun. Maybe..

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Kibishi and Nemuri

___________________Dinner Date___________________

---As we got inside the fancy place, people still ignored me, but they all seemed to gaze at Nemuri for his 'handsomeness' or something. I suppose he did look good tonight. Not anything over good. Right after I got out of school we went to his house and he dressed up in this nice tux and I chose to wear my school uniform because it looked just as nice as a tux... To me anyway. The waitress sat us down on the balcony table and the sun looked like it was dimming. "What can I get you two?" She marvelled at Nemuri and swooned completely ignoring me. I was too busy looking over at the city. It was so pretty when the sky looked like this. "Sorry about that, Kibishi-sama." He apologized to me as soon as the lady walked away. "I'm used to it. It isn't your fault." I half smiled looking at how nice this place was. How did Nemuri afford this? "No, I should make it up to you. She should be taught a lesson to realize how cute you are!" He clenched his fist on the table and stood up. "No no no! It's alright!" I put my hand on my forehead and sighed. "I get treated like this all the time. Its no big deal." He sat back down and stared at me sadly. "I won't treat you like the others do. I never have, and I swear that I'll treat you like a precious jewel no matter how many times you get scratched, I'll always polish your wounds." He smiled at me and I muttered "I'm already broken." "There is nothing that I wouldn't do for you Kibishi-sama. I would give you my life if I had no other choice." I looked up at him and he looked serious. He wasn't being flirty and he didn't want to score any points with me but he was truly being honest.
--- "I devoted my life to you the day we met. Can you remember it?" I shook my head at him. We never talked any before I met him in my back yard, what was he talking about? "I can't explain that day in words but, it was the best day of my life. Try to remember it Kibishi-sama. You have to remember it. Please." He was tearing up and I didn't understand it. Why? What was so important about that day? I can't remember it. What was he talking about? "Here is your food... sir..." The waitress dazed out as she handed both of the plates and drinks to him.
---After that, we ate and it was turning dark. I stood up and gazed off the balcony as my hair swirled in the light soft wind. Was Nemuri a part of my life that I had forgotten? Why couldn't he tell me? The city lights in the dark shadows were beautiful. I heard Nemuri's voice above my head. "It's pretty out here, isn't it Kibishi?" I found myself smiling, then I stopped. Why was I always happy with him around me? I don't want to get close to him, or I'll just loose him. "It's breathtaking. Thank you Nemuri-san." I looked up at him and he was smiling too. "Your even cuter when your happy." He swiped his thumb over my cheek lightly. This somehow didn't feel so bad. I still didn't understand Nemuri and why he wanted to devote his life to me but I guess some things are better to find out on your own, and some things are better if you don't find out at all.
---He moved closer to me, but he didn't kiss me like I some what wished for him to, he only hugged me tightly in his arms. "Remember the day we met. You told me you would never forget it. Think Kibishi. You can't forget it, you have to remember that day more than anything. Try to remember." I could feel his tears on my neck. Was it that serious? I don't know what your talking about! I don't understand Nemuri! What am I supposed to do?

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Kibishi and Nemuri

____________________Sleepover____________________

---After the dinner we walked on the street late at night to go back to Nemuri-san's house. That was a really great meal, I hope that Nemuri would just get it over with. The kiss that he wanted to give me so badly wasn't going to change my mind. He wasn't going to get any closer to me, after all, he was just a tool for me to feel like I was wanted into the world. How was he 18? He looks so much older, not like an old man but he looks more like a more mature guy that I would've expected him to be. "Kibishi-sama. Is there anything you want me to do for you? I want to hear your voice." His face was radiating in the dark, he reminded me that I had a friend, but was all this just an act? Just a little play? A joke? He wanted to come close to me and just drop. Leave me just like all the others did. "What are you thinking Kibi-kun? You seem to be looking upset. Is something bothering you?" Nemuri leaned over as I looked at him blankly. He reminds me of a child. "You. Your bothering me. Why are you here? Who are you? Why won't you tell me?" I blurted out 3 perfect questions, hoping they would get answered. "I can't say. I shouldn't be here now, but you have to remember it. You can't forget that." He looked at me like my father did. Nemuri wanted to protect me or something. Was this what it was all about? Why was it so important? Nothing matters about the past so why does he keep bringing it up? It never happened! I don't understand. "I-I'll try." I told him. There was nothing else to do, so I might as well try to remember. I couldn't just back out. He 'wanted' me to remember. So, I would at least give it a shot, if it was that important to him.
--- We were at his house now and the lights were on. Nemuri lives in an apartment and he is on the top floor. We went up the elevator and he unlocked the door smiling. "I'm glad you'll make an effort. It means a lot to me." Nemuri and I went inside and he changed in the bathroom giving me a small pajama outfit to change into. It was pink? Nice, Nemuri. Buy me a pink outfit. Now I really do feel like a hooker. "It's only for tonight." He yelled from the bathroom and I was already dressed. It was a little big on me to be honest. The cuffs came over my finger tips and the pants curled over my toes. "Kibi-kun looks so kawaii!!!" He swooned at me as soon as he stepped out. I smiled at him and he hugged me. "I won't let anything happen to you Kibishi. I promise to pay attention to only you, and it makes me feel even better that I can finally hold you in my arms. Tell me anything" I paused as he let go of me and sat on the floor. This was a one bedroom one bathroom apartment. I sat down on his bed and thought about what to say. "I am Kibishi Kuro and I-" "You told me all of that allready." He cut me off. I did? When? "Okay well, I have a servant named Nemuri and he is a total moron. The end." He smiled at me again. What was so great about being an idiot Nemuri? "The story can't end there. What am I to you Kibishi-sama?" He edged me on. "Your a person to me. Your Nemuri. You don't really mean much to me at all. Your my servant." I glared at him. Why did he think he was so important? He only wanted to listen to me right? I don't understand anything anymore. "Oh, that isn't what you told me last time." He laughed. What did he mean? "No, I'm pretty sure I told you that before." I hesitated. Nemuri took my hand and we ran out of his apartment room. Where were we going now? "I can't tell you, maybe I can show you, it could spell things out easier!" My arm was tearing off. Could he run any faster? Finally we stopped up at a big hill. I let go of his hand and held my chest trying to catch my breath back. What was wrong with this guy? Was he some type of psychopath? "Here. This." He took my arm again and pushed away some bushes stepping through them. I walked through and it was beautiful. The moon was halfway full tonight and the city lights surrounded us. "Do you remember?" He looked at the lights. "No. I-I can't remember this place." It felt familiar though. I am almost completely positive that I was here before, but I wasn't sure. Where was this place? He took my arms and wrapped them around his neck. "Try." His face was serious looking at mine. What was I supposed to remember if I don't understand? "I am." I hesitated. It was right on the edge of my mind. I knew this place from somewhere, but where? "Try harder." He glared at me. Where was this before? I don't know! "I can't." I gave up and he took my face. "Remember Kibishi." Our lips touched and it was so familiar to me. This happened somewhere before I swear. Where? Where was I when it did happen? What was this place? Words flashed in my mind 'City Light Hill' and I heard his voice say it. "Kibi-kun, we are here, City Light Hill. The place where all of your wishes come true." "Really Nemi? Well, I wish that I will never forget this. Ever." "You won't. I'm sure you can't forget. We have already made enough memories." "I'll never forget Nemuri-san. Kiss me so I can remember forever." And that kiss was the one that I was having now. How could I remember that? That wasn't my voice! That wasn't me! I would never say that! Who am I? Who was he? That was a flash back that I never had. That couldn't be me. It was him though, and my voice. My kiss. Nemuri pulled away from me and hugged me in his arms. "Remember Kibishi-sama. Remember me. You said you wouldn't forget." He pulled me closer. I don't, I can't remember. It happened, but where? "City Light Hill?" My mouth blurted and he froze. "You remember this place?" "No, but I heard you say it." I looked at him. I was so tired and confused. What was I supposed to do now? Just a few months ago, I was lonely and ignored, but now I'm some type of reincarnation or something? Now I was being hugged and kissed. This is so weird. I went from the bottom to top in just a matter of days and now I can actually smile? This seemed so fake but yet, it felt real. My mind turned black and I could feel the wind thrash on my face.
---"I'm so sorry Kibishi! I didn't mean to! I didn't mean to bring you outside in the rain! Wake up Kibi-kun! Don't stay asleep! Stay awake!" I could hear Nemuri's voice above me as I opened my eyes. "Nem-Nemuri?" I looked up at him as my eyes adjusted. He was on top of me and I was on his bed. "I'm so sorry for taking you out in the cold! We could've went later on tonight. I didn't mean to! Forgive me, Kibishi-sama." He clasped both of his hands and laid his head on my chest. "Na-nani?" I pushed him off and he only sprang back on me "Please forgive me Kibishi-sama!!!" I pulled up my arm and he clutched it. "Okay okay!! Alright! Just leave me alone." I sat up. This was giving me a headache. "Listen. You remembered it a little. You have to think harder Kibishi. You can't just stop. Remember it a-" He caught my eyes and I pulled his mouth to mine, for some weird reason. I wanted him to shut up about it. I didn't care. He pulled away from me and put his finger over my bottom lip. "You cheater." He whispered. What? "You made the fourth when you only called for 3." He glared at me and I glared back. "So for that, I will punish you like servants do their masters." I froze as I felt his fingers slide down my stomach. "Y-y-yamete!!" I yelled clutching his hand. "No." He smiled at me pushing his mouth to mine. I held his hand tighter so it wouldn't move down. "Get off me!!! Stop it Nemuri-san! I order you to st-stop!" I winced. "Fine." He pulled away from me and sat on the floor. I glared at him and he smiled. "Someone got pissed." Nemuri laughed in a mocking way. "Shut up!" I snapped at him. He ruined it for tonight too. I curled up under the cover squinting my eyes shut. Was it good that I wanted him to touch me again? The lights cut off and I felt an arm wrap around my chest.
---"Nemuri-san? Are you mad at me?" I muttered. I felt sort of like a mean person for acting that way. "No. I wouldn't ever be mad at you Kibishi-sama. Your my life. Actually, I'm quite happy that you know how to defend for yourself." I could see the smile in his voice as I poked my head up from the cover. "You cheated too." I looked at him. "You kissed me which makes 5 kisses." He stared blankly at me "You keep up?" He asked and I popped him in the face softly. "Baka." I turned away and snuggled the cover. I heard him laugh behind me. Anywhere with Nemuri felt sort of like home somehow.

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Kibishi and Nemuri

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--- After I woke up this morning I noticed that Nemuri's arm was still wrapped around me. I got up and went in the kitchen pacing back and forth on the floor. Why was I here? What did he do to me last night? Did we really go to that strange place? I gulped and heard him say "Kibiii-kuuun!!!! Ohayo!" I turned around quickly. "What do you want to eat for breakfast?" He smiled and his hair flipped as he turned to me. I turned my head away. Even with his hair like that he looked good. Nemuri's blue hair was scruffled up and it halfway covered his bright orange eyes. "C-curry." I clasped my mouth shut noticing I studdered. "Curry? Demo-" "Curry Nemuri-san! Curry!" I turned to him again and he laughed at me. What was allways so funny to him? Everything did seem to be a joke in his eyes. I would honestly rather have someone to ignore my words than to laugh at them. "Okay then, you sure?" He crossed his arms and cocked his eyebrow leaning up against the counter. I nodded akwardly and he yelled "Awai-chan!!!!" Who? I heard little taps behind me and I spun around. "A-Awai?" I asked looking down. "Mhm... My little hamster loves curry." I could hear Nemuri laugh again as he picked up the animal. "Cute isn't she?" He smiled at me petting her head with his finger. "I guess." I turned away as he took my hand. "Koko." He put her in my hand and i felt her fuzziness. Nemuri washed his hands and fixed the food as I sat on the dining room chair. "Awai-chan?" I asked petting the cute pet. "Mhm... She is tiny and light, so I named her Awai. Cute name right, Kibi-kun?" He laughed and put 2 bowls on the table in front of me. I nodded and sat her on the table as he motioned. She was pretty cute for an animal. Nemuri sat down in front of me and we both said "Itadaki-masu" at the same time. I could've swore that Awai hummed it...
---After we ate he cleaned up the dishes and picked up Awai. "Awww... Your almost as cute as Kibi-kun." He smiled at Awai-chan and nuzzled his nose on hers. "What time am I going home today?" I asked out of nowhere. "Eh? Oh, I dunno. What time do you wanna go home?" He looked at me curiously as I hesitated. "I don't want to go home. Will you adopt me Nemuri-san?" I bowed my head at him. What was I doing? I didn't want to live with a gay guy, and my mom would've never approved even if I did. "Ano..-" "Please let me stay here Nemuri-san! Please... I promised to allways talk to you, this would help me keep my promise. I'll do the chores or anything just pl-" "You don't have to beg me Kibishi-sama. I'll let you stay." I looked up at him and he was smiling. I felt sortof stupid. I was relieved somehow. Did I actually want to stay with him? "Thank you for asking. I would be happy if you could live with me! We could play together everyday!" He laughed and I suddenly felt like I didn't want to be here anymore. What was his definition of 'play'? "O-okay..." I turned away again. Why was I being so nervous?! It's not like I even like the guy! I turned my head back up and his piercing neon eyes caught mine. I flashed away again. "Why are you being so nervous Kibi-kun? Is it because of Awai-chan?" He held her up to his face and pointed her beady little eyes at me. "Or are you jealous of Awai?" I could hear the cocky tone to his voice and I firmly muttered "That would be the last thing I would get jealous of." I pointed at his pet. He snuggled her and said "Now you are cuter than Kibishi." He stuck his tounge out at me.

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Kibishi and Nemuri

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--- After out little debate on if I was jealous or not, Nemuri put Awai back up and we headed outside after we got dressed. "You sure your going to go through with this, Kibishi-sama?" He turned to me as he put the key in the door. "Positive." I replied as I heard the it lock. "Your a really weird kid, ya' know that?" He ruffled my hair in his palm and walked off. "What are you talking about?! Your the one who was sniffing around he woods looking for 'Kibiiiii-kuuuuuun!' remember?" He shoved his hands in his coat pockets and shrugged "Well I have a reason for that." I caught up to him quickly and paced beside him. "Tell me!!! Nemuri-san, I order you to tell me why right now." I glared at him as his stiff eyes hit mine. "No." He turned back away and began walking again. I groaned in frustration and tackled him on the ground, well I tried anyway... "Your so small, what makes you think you could push me down?" His voice grew cocky as I shoved both of my hands onto his shoulder blades, high reach by the way. Nemuri's hands clutched my wrists as he pulled me onto his back. "Come on then. Little Kibishi-sama, I will not tell you because I can't. I would honestly do anything in the world for you, but I simply cannot tell you why I am here and how I know you. You have to remember it, it's nothing that can be put in words Kibishi. Believe me, I would've told you by now, I tell you everything." I shuddered at his words and he flinched. "What's wrong now?!!!" He screamed as I tugged my arms away from his hands. "You can't tell someone you'll do anything for them! It's crazy! You only just met me!!!" I failed at pulling away. "Why the hell not? Oh, so you believe me then? Your afraid that I won't keep my promise." His words hit my mind as I hesitated to reply. He was right. "No... It's just stupid thinking someone would actually approve that you would do anything." I muttered un-thinking. He half laughed and I got pissed. "You love me Kibishi. You can't deny it." I heard a voice in the back of my mind and it took me a moment to realize, it was his. "Did you say something!?!" I screamed shuffling on his back as he held me still. "No, why? Oh... It must be some type of flashback, you've been having them lately, correct?" Nemuri asked smartly. "Nemuri-sensei, shut up." I mocked his tone. He laughed again and it made me more ticked. "One who asks a question will remain stupid for a mere 10 minutes, one who never asks a question will remain stupid forever." He looked halfway at me and muttered "Baka..." I grew hot on my face for some reason. I never knew that I would ever actually ask Nemuri myself if he would adopt me. I was seriously expecting him to ask me. I just hope this doesn't turn out to be a bad choice.
--- "Kuro-sama. Will you please let me take your son away?" Nemuri asked and my eyes widened as he bowed his head to my mom. What was he doing?!! That was no way to ask my mom?!!! That was no way to ask anyone!! "Why should I lend you my son?" My mom cut the vegetables on the table and she swifted her eyes across me onto Nemuri. "We can play tons of games and I will bathe with him and we can read bedtime stories!! Oh and if he gets scared during the night he can come sleep in my bed!" Nemuri-san kept bowing his head and then he looked up at her with big pleading eyes. I smacked my forehead and sighed. Bathe, play and sleep together? You were asking for trouble Nemuri-san, there would be no way that she would ever- "That sounds wonderful!" My mom's voice made me fall over on the floor. Was she SERIOUS!?!!!!? "Thank you very very very very much!!" Nemuri took my arm and we ran to my room. This was a small house but Nemuri's was much smaller. He started to throw stuff in a bag as I fell lifelessly on my bed. What just happened?! I snuggled up to my cover realizing this would be the last time I would feel it. Nemuri stripped it from my hands as I fell over on my back. "What th-" I got cut off as he pinned me on the bed. His mouth enclosed mine and I gasped for air choking. "Are you happy Kibishi-sama?" He asked me staring straight at my eyes. "I-I-I-I-I guess...." I stuttered about a good 5 times and he smiled. "Your beautiful Kibishi. There would be nothing that I wouldn't ever do for you." His words were soft but strong as they seeped deep down in my heart. It ached. Why was I feeling like this to him? He touched my face and my chest was in a horrid pain. "Calm down." His voice whispered in my ear feeling like it swept away the world around me. I didn't feel alone. "Your heart is beating so fast. Are you alright, Kibishi-kun?" Nemuri's eyes sliced through mine as I turned my head away. My heart was pounding, it wasn't simply beating. I felt my face grow hot as he kissed my cheek. My chest stopped breathing and I closed my eyes. His kisses trailed down my neck, then back up to my cheek. "Kibishi-kun, you don't have to be nervous around me at all." He pulled my face back and I felt our lips touch for a new 7th time. Every kiss got better and better somehow. "I won't hurt you, and I won't try anything stupid because I respect you. I respect everything about Kibishi-kun." His fingertips now stroked my cheek while his other hand held mine. I heard a thud behind me as I jumped. Nemuri tilted his head upward and his eyes widened. "Um... Does your mom have some type of sinus infection or tinnitus? You might want to consult your doctor." I sprang up and looked at my mom, she was on the floor with a nosebleed. I only felt my cheeks get hotter and hotter. My mom was watching me and Nemuri? "I guess she had a breakdown from the atmosphere in here. It is pretty hot." He pulled the collar of his shirt open as I glared at him harshly... This guy would make some roommate.

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Kibishi and Nemuri

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--- Nemuri walked with my bag over his shoulder. He took everything that was mine. Everything. I didn't really understand why, it's not like we were going away somewhere, were we? "Kibishi-sama. Are you alright?" Nemuri looked down at me stopping. I stood still as well. Something felt wrong, what was it? "Yeah. I'm fine." I looked up at him and started to walk again. "You sure? Because I can-" I felt my knees collapse and he caught me before I fell on the pavement. My throat wouldn't stop coughing and I felt like I couldn't breathe well anymore. "Kibishi!! Are you okay! Can you hear me?!" I heard Nemuri's deep smooth voice above my closed eyes. I couldn't feel my body. What was happening? What could be wrong? I felt my arms go numb and tingle as my head was spinning slowly. This is such a weird feeling. I might just be sick. "Kibishi!! Come on! Off to school!" I heard my dad's voice as I opened my eyes. I was 10 again and this was the day my father died. "Alright papa!" I ran to him and he put me on his back laughing. This very summer day was the day he left us. "We might be late on your first day but that's be fine!" He smiled and I laughed. Soon enough we got to school. I wanted time to stop, I didn't want to have this dream anymore. Stop! "Have a good day." My dad hugged me and I could feel the tears swell up in my eyes. "Whats wrong?" He looked at me curiously. "I-I don't want to go to the fifth grade. I want to stay at home with Mama and Papa." I wiped the tears away from my face and my dad's soft voice said "I'll be here when you get off of school, don't worry about Mama and Papa. We will always be here so you shouldn't worry at all." My dad smiled and I forced myself to too. On the inside, holding back my tears. "Kibishi-kun!" This little girl tugged my arm and my best friend came up to me "Come on man, we're gonna be late! Let's go!!" Taka and Emu. I waved at my dad as we ran in the school doors. "Alright everyone head down to the playground and then you can leave." The teacher said. Had time passed by that quickly? "Taka!!" I yelled at him and caught up. "What's up?" My breath ran out as I got to the playground with him. "Nothing really. This school sucks though." He shoved his hands in his pockets and Emu came walking up with her best friend. I never liked her best friend much. She annoyed me. I always had a crush on Emu though, she was my best friend that was a girl. "Kibishi-kun look!" She pointed at this mysterious guy and I noticed he was looking at us. Nemuri. "He looks funny!" She giggled and pointed at his blue hair. I froze as he turned to me and stared. My body wouldn't move. We have met before then. He wasn't lying to me. "Yeah. He does, doesn't he? He looks like a faggot." Taka muttered and Emu hit his arm. "That's mean, I meant that he looks like a funny person. Not that he looks weird. He looks really cute though!" She clasped her hands together as my face burned a bit with jealousy. I turned to Taka just to get my eyes away from the mysterious guy's stare. He was lowly growling under his breath. "Why the hell was he looking over here like that?" His face turned puzzled a bit as I turned back towards the man. He was gone? How? "I don't know! And you shouldn't say bad words Taka-kun. It's not nice." Emu crossed her arms and I found myself walking home. I stayed at the playground with them until it got dark. My dad came by there but I told him I was too busy playing. So he told me to meet him at home. It was getting cold and really quiet. I dropped Taka and Emu off before me because their houses were close to school, mine was the farthest away. My throat hummed to get rid of the lonely scared feeling. When I got inside the house I fell asleep. Today felt like a long day. This was all a dream. A nightmare. A horrifying nightmare. I woke up screaming for some reason and I ran to my parents room to get my dad up. He disappeared. He was gone. He left. I screamed as loud as I could just to get my mom up. "Where was dad!?! Where did he go?!!" He left us? Why? My mom remained sleeping, so I shook her to ask if I could go outside and look for him. She just laid back down. Ignoring me for the very first time. I ran outside anyway. It was raining and I couldn't keep the tears out of my eyes. I saw something move near the woods so I ran tripping over my feet with every step. Where was he? I finally gave in falling to the ground. This was the spot where I met Nemuri. This very spot. 4 years ago and it still remained unchanged. The next day people would talk some to me, but not much. Emu ignored me somewhat more and more each day and Taka wouldn't even speak to me. Then it remained silent.
--- "NEMURI!!!" I screamed opening my eyes. I was at the hospital with needles in my wrist. "Kibishi-sama!?!! Are you okay?!!!" His face came two inches from mine and I could see the tears swell up in his eyes. "N-" I got cut off as he pushed his mouth to mine. My eyes shut slowly as I felt his tears fall on my cheeks. He was worried about me. "I was so scared." He whispered in my hair as I felt his arms clutch around my body. I held him with my hands hurting and his brace felt passionate. This was so comfortable in a way. "I was scared too. I was afraid I wouldn't wake up." He pulled away from me and held my face in his palms. Nemuri was beautiful, and I was hot and sweaty with chills running through my arms and legs. "I saw you." I told him shyly. My face felt hot with his hands touching it. "I lov-" The doctor walked in and saw Nemuri on top of me and she yelled at him to get out. "Sorry about that." She gave me medicine and un-hooked the needles. "You can leave." I got up and walked out of the room. Well that was awkward. I held the bandage around my hand and winced. "Kibishi Kuro." I heard Nemuri say to the man as he handed him medicine. I walked up to them and my head fell on Nemuri. I was exhausted. He picked me up in his arms and I fell asleep. This was such a weird feeling, my chest was still deep and wounded for some reason. Dad left four years ago. So, I admit that he died just to ease the memory's pain. "Kibishi-sama." I heard Nemuri's voice again and I opened my eyes. "Talk to me." He whispered in my ear and I felt my body shiver. "About what?" I blushed. There wasn't anything to talk about really. "Tell me about something I don't know." He pressed his nose to mine softly and I saw him grin. I breathed heavily and he backed away setting me in his lap. I felt awkward sort of as he hugged me from behind. I cleared my throat and started to talk.

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Kibishi and Nemuri

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--- "Something you don't know?" I looked at him puzzled. "Yep... Something I don't know." He told me. I hesitated. "Ano.... Ask me a question that you want to know." I told Nemuri the same thing he normally tells me. "Okay, what do you see in me? What am I to you? Do you like me?" He asked me the perfect questions. I didn't really feel like answering, I didn't want to get close to Nemuri because he would just leave, ignore me, or not feel the same. "You are... Everything to me. Your the only person that will listen to me, the rest ignore me. They hate me. Your the only one that cares and loves me. So you mean more than anything to me. I want to do things for you too but you never ask anything from me, your so polite and dainty. It makes me quite jealous sometimes, but I think you may be the only one that I care about too, I do care for others somewhat, but you have to be the one that I have this feeling towards... Your Nemuri. I would have to say that I suppose your my friend, but you seem more than just a friend, more like a best friend, but better. It's hard to explain." I sighed. My heart still ached and my wrist was sore. "Kibishi-sama? Will you go out with me?" He looked deep in my eyes as I could feel my face get hot. "I-I can't... It's not that I don't want to because I-" His lips grazed mine as my face grew hotter. "I?" He edged me forward. I couldn't breathe straight, I could feel my heart in my hands and ears. "Because I love you too much just to date you! And you'll end up breaking up with me!" I shouted. Did I say that? Did I say that!?!! He paused and it felt really awkward somehow for me. I shrunk up into my knees and then mumbled "I'm a stupid little kid. You wouldn't want me even if we did date. I would rather be friends." I could feel my tears grow hot on my eyes, building up with every unsteady breath I took. "I would rather be lovers. And your my first love Kibishi. I am in love with you. We can't be friends. And I won't leave you. I swear on my life, I'll never leave you. Because I love you Kibishi. More than anything." I looked up at his eyes and they caught mine. I was paralyzed. I Hate that word. Love. Love? Could this be it? This feeling? This odd unexplainable pain, the blush I get on my cheeks, the way I stutter, the way he looks at me, the way I see him, this is love? Did I love him back? He kissed me and it was the most passionate kiss I've ever had. He meant it all, down to every last detail and word. I pushed him away and hugged him. I didn't want to let go. Tomorrow I have school and I want to skip it. "What do you see in me? What am I to you? Do you like me?" I asked him the same three questions to hear his answers, in his voice, cradled by his love. I felt secure.
--- "I see the world in you, I see your future with me, I see everything in you and I am so hopelessly in love with you, I could probably die and still be holding onto you. You are my world, my future, and my everything. And I don't like you Kibishi, I love you. I adore you, every simple move you make stun me and every word you say makes me go into a deep un-ending daze. Your heart is so fragile and pure, I feel like I am poisoning you, but I can't help it. I am in love with everything about you." I cried in his shoulder. He meant all of it. My chest was burning and it felt like I was breaking. "I love you." His voice was firm and true. "Shut up!" I screamed. "Stop!" I couldn't take this feeling anymore, it felt like it was murdering me on the inside. Stop. I never meant for any of this to happen. He pushed me on the cold floor and kissed me. This felt so weird. I felt stupid. His words were good enough to make a perfectly pieced poem that would be a worldwide masterpiece and mine weren't even good enough to throw away or to even touch. He was so perfect, it made me desire to hate him, I couldn't. It's impossible. I love him. I hate that I love him. I love it though. Life is so confusing...